Seems messed up that relations have come down to this. Men paying for time with a woman. Good lord.
You sound blue pill. Worst case scenario then black pill.
Wtf fo you think marriage is? Playing house? A man takes all the risk.
George Bruno posted a vblog on "dont oay full price for used goods."
Cratered SMV and still gets the ring. Its so cucky but guys don't learn.
Sit back and actually enjoy the rest of the week but reflect on the outcome you seek. You allocate resources for what?
You can live off barista wages at starbucks as a bachelor. Not the winning formula for the ideal life. The point is that, you could do next to nothing or bare minimum.
You climb the dominance hierarchy to stake yoyr claim but, the competition for a valueless "prize" is nonsensical.
There's a black pill, selfish genes, survival of the fittest and winner takes all aspects of life and game. The sooner you accept the better chance of you making the best possible choices in the future.
The pursuit needs to be "your own mental point of origin" ratger than a self sacrificial lamb by virtue of your maleness.