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Don Juan
well.. now its been over 2 months since my ex of 5 years walked out on me and literally disappeared. i have abandonment issues and i basically self destructed. i did everything wrong. i tried to contact her over and over again. her dad tried to contact me about paying part of her credit card that he paid off. my family in turn ble w up her phone and work phone trying to contact her because she has some nerve to live under my parents roof for 2 years rent free and then pull this stunt. everyting she has right now is due to me and my family helping her build a life. and now that she doesnt 'need' me anymore, she stonewalled and went dark on me.. she has the brand new 2005 car i bought her, she has the job i found her, etc etc.. what a flipping joke my life is right now. its my own fault for getting involved with someone like that.
i lost my job last week because i was sick and depressed and went over on sick/vacation days. i am going to be collecting unemployment so thats a plus. and i have decided to go back to my old college and get a 2nd bachelors in a subject i already have a minor in. i'll be living in a single in the dorms so i will be around plenty of people.. big fish on campus.
heres the problem. what on God's green earth sould i do with myself over the next 4 months?! it has to be something really motivating and uplifting. i'd like to travel but i have noone to go places with. i dont have many friends or family near me, i was a working machine trying to provide for 'us' and build a family, which is part of how i self destructed after the girl disappeared. i'm not sure what to do. i am very lonely. my life is upside down and i am living a nightmare. theres something wrong with me that i had a job paying over 75k and i just couldnt 'handle it'. i must start over but getting through the next 4 months is going to be hell if i dont come up with something to fill my time with that can get my mind of my ex whom i hope gets in a head on auto accident with an 18 wheeler.
i lost my job last week because i was sick and depressed and went over on sick/vacation days. i am going to be collecting unemployment so thats a plus. and i have decided to go back to my old college and get a 2nd bachelors in a subject i already have a minor in. i'll be living in a single in the dorms so i will be around plenty of people.. big fish on campus.
heres the problem. what on God's green earth sould i do with myself over the next 4 months?! it has to be something really motivating and uplifting. i'd like to travel but i have noone to go places with. i dont have many friends or family near me, i was a working machine trying to provide for 'us' and build a family, which is part of how i self destructed after the girl disappeared. i'm not sure what to do. i am very lonely. my life is upside down and i am living a nightmare. theres something wrong with me that i had a job paying over 75k and i just couldnt 'handle it'. i must start over but getting through the next 4 months is going to be hell if i dont come up with something to fill my time with that can get my mind of my ex whom i hope gets in a head on auto accident with an 18 wheeler.