Hey there. This is probably asking for some unconventional advice, but this is just driving me up the fvcking wall. This is very urgent, so please give me something to consider. This is basically my last resort here. Any serious reply will be greatly appreciated.
Now, the problem is with a girl. However, this girl is severely different. I liked her quite a while back- she was cute enough, though a bit spacey. So, I got tied into the process of perusing her, so to speak.
This however soon went out the window. Her friend discouraged me, and for whatever reason I gave up. I guess deep down I just knew it wouldn't work.
In recent weeks, however, I've just been being particularly friendly with her. Not because I was re-interested in her- I just wanted to be her friend. It worked, and I quickly became one of her friends. Now, I'm realizing I may be in over my head.
Here's the complications. She's got issues. None of them are her fault, and she's still nice as can be. However, she's mildly paranoid, a hemophiliac, has anemia, has issues with blood sugar, passes out randomly from time to time (due to blood sugar issues), and, I've just recently learned, suffers from chronic depression. Needless to say, her being a bit spacey is out there.
Now, despite knowing all this, I think that by getting to know her better I've fallen for her again. I think it really amazes me that any human being could be so happy (at least on the surface) and religiously devout with those kinds of problems. But this couldn't have come at a worse time.
As her friend, I feel a great responsibility. She compels me to make a better person out of myself. (Yes, I know, I'm corny as hell, but do see above). I've become her best guy friend, and I see that as a weight of responsibility as well. As such, I've become a bit protective- when people talk about her negatively, I instantly snap into fighting mode. I don't put up with that ****. In fact, I almost kicked a strangers ass the other day for basically attempting to assault her (he slammed into me instead, due to my quick thinking).
Her own personality also comes as a stark contrast to myself. I'm known as a fairly laid back, cool guy. Much higher on the social ladder than she would be. She however is seen as an outcast. Despite us being a world apart in personality terms, we still connect.
Now, she's entered a bout of depression. And, feeling a responsibility to her, I'm quite a wreck right now. I want to be there for her no matter what. I wish I could make her feel better. But, I know depression doesn't work like that. People with depression, however, do sometimes seek alternative lifestyles- as such, she becomes more and more distant from me in social terms by the day. In addition, the depression is really taking a tolle on her psyche. She's definitely not in her right mind when certain topics (such as death) come up. (NOTE: She's NOT suicidal- just disturbingly blunt to death).
Not that I really give a **** about what society thinks here. I'm going to stick to my guns and my morals on this one. I think she needs me right now, and I need to do what I can.
I just want to know what everyone else thinks. Am I doing the right thing? Should I give up? If you were in my shoes, what would you do?
Thanks for listening to my monologue
I really hope someone will be willing to help out, though.
Now, the problem is with a girl. However, this girl is severely different. I liked her quite a while back- she was cute enough, though a bit spacey. So, I got tied into the process of perusing her, so to speak.
This however soon went out the window. Her friend discouraged me, and for whatever reason I gave up. I guess deep down I just knew it wouldn't work.
In recent weeks, however, I've just been being particularly friendly with her. Not because I was re-interested in her- I just wanted to be her friend. It worked, and I quickly became one of her friends. Now, I'm realizing I may be in over my head.
Here's the complications. She's got issues. None of them are her fault, and she's still nice as can be. However, she's mildly paranoid, a hemophiliac, has anemia, has issues with blood sugar, passes out randomly from time to time (due to blood sugar issues), and, I've just recently learned, suffers from chronic depression. Needless to say, her being a bit spacey is out there.
Now, despite knowing all this, I think that by getting to know her better I've fallen for her again. I think it really amazes me that any human being could be so happy (at least on the surface) and religiously devout with those kinds of problems. But this couldn't have come at a worse time.
As her friend, I feel a great responsibility. She compels me to make a better person out of myself. (Yes, I know, I'm corny as hell, but do see above). I've become her best guy friend, and I see that as a weight of responsibility as well. As such, I've become a bit protective- when people talk about her negatively, I instantly snap into fighting mode. I don't put up with that ****. In fact, I almost kicked a strangers ass the other day for basically attempting to assault her (he slammed into me instead, due to my quick thinking).
Her own personality also comes as a stark contrast to myself. I'm known as a fairly laid back, cool guy. Much higher on the social ladder than she would be. She however is seen as an outcast. Despite us being a world apart in personality terms, we still connect.
Now, she's entered a bout of depression. And, feeling a responsibility to her, I'm quite a wreck right now. I want to be there for her no matter what. I wish I could make her feel better. But, I know depression doesn't work like that. People with depression, however, do sometimes seek alternative lifestyles- as such, she becomes more and more distant from me in social terms by the day. In addition, the depression is really taking a tolle on her psyche. She's definitely not in her right mind when certain topics (such as death) come up. (NOTE: She's NOT suicidal- just disturbingly blunt to death).
Not that I really give a **** about what society thinks here. I'm going to stick to my guns and my morals on this one. I think she needs me right now, and I need to do what I can.
I just want to know what everyone else thinks. Am I doing the right thing? Should I give up? If you were in my shoes, what would you do?
Thanks for listening to my monologue
I really hope someone will be willing to help out, though.