I have no idea why I'm posting here. A mix of boredom and desperateness. I don't even know if I have a purpose with this thread. Maybe an attempt to keep some sort of a "self-improvement log". We'll see.
Anyways. Some background info. I remember I was 17 when I thought "****, I need a girlfriend." Why didn't I have a girlfriend? Of course. I had never had a crush on anyone before. As soon as this happened, things would go smoothly. Haha.
I had just turned 18 when my dream came through. Fell in love with a girl in my class, how awesome. It didn't take more than a couple of weeks before I realized. I was clueless. I did get her attention from time to time and was in heaven for those few minutes once a week, but well, I think I knew all the time that this was gonna end in disaster.
So it did. 2-3 months after falling for her, I realized that it never was gonna be us. How sad. I got depressed over this girl. I started to think that noone liked me, and the more that thought bothered me, the more truth was added to the statement. People went from liking me to nothing me to dislike me. I hated myself, and thought I was stuck with my personality forever. zzz. Then I found a random thread on the internet called "The New Formula For Getting Chicks". I have to admit, I laughed. I opened the ridiculously long thread with the ridiculous name, and quickly realized that this **** wasn't about getting your thing down there which is cencored wet. It was about improving yourself. After three days I had read 100/300 pages - 2000 posts. I was obsessed.
This was in 2006. I'm now 20. I have quite a lot of friends, people like me, I like me. I haven't kissed a girl yet, I'm a virgin, but I still like me. But what's so great about self-improvement is that once you realize that it's working, you also realize that there are no limits. I want to like me better. I just need to figure out how. I guess I found a purpose with the thread after all.
This became 10x longer than I thought. I'll continue boring you to death later. If anyone is stupid enough to read all this, that is.
Anyways. Some background info. I remember I was 17 when I thought "****, I need a girlfriend." Why didn't I have a girlfriend? Of course. I had never had a crush on anyone before. As soon as this happened, things would go smoothly. Haha.
I had just turned 18 when my dream came through. Fell in love with a girl in my class, how awesome. It didn't take more than a couple of weeks before I realized. I was clueless. I did get her attention from time to time and was in heaven for those few minutes once a week, but well, I think I knew all the time that this was gonna end in disaster.
So it did. 2-3 months after falling for her, I realized that it never was gonna be us. How sad. I got depressed over this girl. I started to think that noone liked me, and the more that thought bothered me, the more truth was added to the statement. People went from liking me to nothing me to dislike me. I hated myself, and thought I was stuck with my personality forever. zzz. Then I found a random thread on the internet called "The New Formula For Getting Chicks". I have to admit, I laughed. I opened the ridiculously long thread with the ridiculous name, and quickly realized that this **** wasn't about getting your thing down there which is cencored wet. It was about improving yourself. After three days I had read 100/300 pages - 2000 posts. I was obsessed.
This was in 2006. I'm now 20. I have quite a lot of friends, people like me, I like me. I haven't kissed a girl yet, I'm a virgin, but I still like me. But what's so great about self-improvement is that once you realize that it's working, you also realize that there are no limits. I want to like me better. I just need to figure out how. I guess I found a purpose with the thread after all.
This became 10x longer than I thought. I'll continue boring you to death later. If anyone is stupid enough to read all this, that is.
) and get a date...that way she KNOWS you're interested. Also, kino up a storm!