Fruitbat
Master Don Juan
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Hi Folks,
wanted to take advantage of the new colleagiate atmosphere on this forum to share something.
I have the high profile and demanding job I wanted, and the family I wanted. All is going well.
Last few weeks I have had lapses in memory, feeling a bit overwhelmed to be honest. I usually thrive on this.
Today after a stressful nursery run I lost my temper trying to park. Tradesmen’s vans had taken all the parental spaces, which set me off. I smashed my car on another and now have a large bill. I’m also forgetting things at work, snapping at people.
My sleep is getting better. I’m not being pressured. I just feel like is all work and no play. The end never comes. I’m not really depressed, I’m just…I don’t have any happiness. Even golf feels like pressure when I don’t hit shots right, friends feels like more work. I just want to kind of sit in a room.
I used to have drugs and alcohol to numb this but I gave it up.
Burn out? What? Depression? Eating reasonably now.
to get to where I need to go I basically have to:
Diet down so no nice food
Not drink - can’t lose days to hangovers and will derail gym progress
Work long hours
Spend my time out of work cleaning and organising things.
I’m doing all of this but now I have the discipline, I got nothing joyous in my life. The whole thing is Jam tomorrow and it’s starting to grate.
I have months and years ahead of me of this. I’m still a long way off target physique. My work targets ever increase. No way out. And I don’t feel anyone wants to hear it either
Advice please. I know I’m coming off like a needy beta but like most men of my age I have nobody to share this woth
wanted to take advantage of the new colleagiate atmosphere on this forum to share something.
I have the high profile and demanding job I wanted, and the family I wanted. All is going well.
Last few weeks I have had lapses in memory, feeling a bit overwhelmed to be honest. I usually thrive on this.
Today after a stressful nursery run I lost my temper trying to park. Tradesmen’s vans had taken all the parental spaces, which set me off. I smashed my car on another and now have a large bill. I’m also forgetting things at work, snapping at people.
My sleep is getting better. I’m not being pressured. I just feel like is all work and no play. The end never comes. I’m not really depressed, I’m just…I don’t have any happiness. Even golf feels like pressure when I don’t hit shots right, friends feels like more work. I just want to kind of sit in a room.
I used to have drugs and alcohol to numb this but I gave it up.
Burn out? What? Depression? Eating reasonably now.
to get to where I need to go I basically have to:
Diet down so no nice food
Not drink - can’t lose days to hangovers and will derail gym progress
Work long hours
Spend my time out of work cleaning and organising things.
I’m doing all of this but now I have the discipline, I got nothing joyous in my life. The whole thing is Jam tomorrow and it’s starting to grate.
I have months and years ahead of me of this. I’m still a long way off target physique. My work targets ever increase. No way out. And I don’t feel anyone wants to hear it either
Advice please. I know I’m coming off like a needy beta but like most men of my age I have nobody to share this woth