This is huge. Congratulations. I think it's worth it to reflect on this (for yourself) and say what went wrong and what went right. Why'd you get an A in Video Game design and not the others? How could you have done better? What things helped you do so well in 4903? What are you going to do so that the next semester is all A's? Getting the A wasn't a coincidence, it's because of how you acted. So turn it into a recipe and get it again. Good sh!t bro.
We've chatted some in dm's so I'll skip a few topics.
Tbh it's not about the girls. It's about you and your mindset. Sure you want women. I would be lying if I didn't acknowledge that as a motivation. But you need to work on your inner game here. You don't need (re: 'can't progress') anything from women, want is a better word. You can progress, by working on your mindset. What you need is good grades, a good future, a healthy body and mind. So work on these things, and continue to work on the women thing alongside it. It's a numbers game, man. Keep seeing the girls that you made out with if they're willing to. If not, next. All the while, having a carefree attitude and not getting down on yourself, it will happen. If it's not happening, focus on yourself more. Grind harder. Increase SMV. Get your numbers up. They will come. And when they do, it will all be worth it. Recently I've met a girl who could be relationship material. She initiates, she's intelligent, she's funny, blah blah she ticks my boxes. My point in bringing it up is that I dated (went on dates with) and smashed/kissed a handful of girls before her. I approached many more than I was successful with, was rejected/friendzoned by a large percentage. But I didn't get down on myself, I realized that I needed to keep pushing. Get my SMV up. Try again. Abundance mindset. There will be lows. But the highs will be worth it. It is the nature of the game that there are more lows than highs. Accept it and make the most of it. This girl makes me happy, but I also have to keep in mind that this girl is what I deserve and there are plenty of other girls out there like her. Your time will come man, keep getting after it. 12-15 is such an arbitrary number. Just figure out how to have fun and be a guy that you respect and second to that: that men respect, and second to that: that women respect.
Forget about the girls that rejected you. There's no resurrecting those. Abundance in mind, keep finding new women. Everyone will not like you. And you will not like everyone. You need to be constantly thinking 'do I like her? is she worthy of me?' rather than the other way around. Get one girl. Confidence will go up. Then keep getting more. But never forget the basics. Don't let the women change how you act because 'whew, I finally found someone'. Treat them all the same. There is nothing special about getting women. As you speak to more, you'll realize certain things that tip off whether they're into you. And whether you should even bother with them. A girl gave me her email the other day... do you think I'm going to email? Fvck no. Next. A girl I made out with said she's not emotionally available and doesn't want to use me as a rebound so we can't go back to my place. Am I gonna keep taking her on dates? Nope, soft next, lol because she's fun and has a nice body. So I'll invite her to group things, meet her friends, see what's to her girlfriends, smash if and when she's ready.
Alright I'm done rambling.
Thanks dude. I'm pleased with these grades but like you said I want all As next Semester.
Remember how I made an F in Discrete Math II the first time because I wasn't trying whatsoever and didn't know what I wanted? Well my school just factored out that F that I made in there the first time and replaced it with a B which boosted my GPA again. My GPA is currently a 2.7. Assuming I make all As next semester, my GPA will be very close to or at a 3 by the end of it. After that internship fiasco earlier in my journal, I was very fortunate to get that internship coding in C#. Never would've gotten it had I not gone to Summer School.
Several Factors Regarding the A in 4903:
1.) There was a curve
2.) I found this class objectively much easier than the other three classes
3.) I was more interested in the subject material
4.) Although I applied myself much more, I was still cramming for tests and turning in labs at the last minute. Not doing that at all probably could've made the difference between an A and a B.
5.) Actually taking breaks with either Video Games or books helped me a ton responsibility wise cause I'd be burnt out at the end of the day. I'd then go to the gym, or get to my homework. Timed Breaks as I had mentioned.
6.) Getting rid of my stupid victim mentality really helped. If I want something, I gotta put in some work just like everyone else.
Very nicely said. Realistically, even if every single girl I approach next semester rejected me, but I kept working on my purpose, SMV, and Game, I'd be setting myself up for inevitable success. That Numbers Game is very clutch.
I wanna meet some cuties in the Music Building next semester. Do you have any experience going out alone? I went out to the bar alone a handful of times last semester to Game when my friends didn't feel like it. I'm wondering if it'd be a good idea to go out to concerts, other events and such alone(just cause I don't wanna invite the same people out consecutively and sometimes it's just easier to go out alone.) But I'll probably end up doing it anyways regardless of whether it's a good idea or not lol.
Here are my classes next semester, for anyone who is curious:
CSC 3410: Assembly Programming (yuck)
CSC 4200: Computer Networks
CSC 4240: Artificial Intelligence
MATH 2010: Linear Algebra
SPCH 3040: Ethics and Professionalism
Of course, I'm always working towards my music. By the way, I'm also saving for a car. It is imperative that I have a car. I don't care how long it takes me to get one. That's my number one saving priority right now.
I'll see you all in this journal with an update when I either get a 5th Bang or my Midterm Grades come in. Which will be all As. I don't really care which one comes first lol.
