New Beginnings

[holidayad_]

@holidayad_ Do you have any experience when it comes to selling art? I already have plenty of ideas but im curious on your input, thanks!

Yes. I used to run a reselling sneakers business and also helped to launch a business that sells art accessories for home decor. Feel free to send me a private text here.

Today went well:
- Haircut complete
- Job application complete
- Kept tobacco consumption minimal
- Hygiene up

I applied for a part time position at McDonald's, which would provide me with:
- Enough time and money to push forward with my art business
- Better ability to train as it wont be physically taxing
- Within walking distance, so saving money on travel expenses
- Enough free time to study for college and to pursue my hobby of illusions / magic

Hookup bailed on me, but no stress, it just motivated me more to do the right things today.

Hope you all had a great day too, be proud of your baby steps!!

Keep going!

 

[gwoppin]

Yes. I used to run a reselling sneakers business and also helped to launch a business that sells art accessories for home decor. Feel free to send me a private text here.



Keep going!

Seeing a lot of people my age reselling sneakers is what gave me the idea to customise my own, ill definitely inbox you in the near future. Thank you for the offer and encouragement.

 

[gwoppin]

Remade CV and cover letter, been applying as a warehouse operative. Decent pay and usually lots of overtime available.

No cigarettes but lots of weed.

Ive started training again, ive taken an interest in calisthenics. Down on the tea and coffee.

Havent done a single thing for college in weeks.

Ive been doing better, but i need some advice or something to take it to the next level? 2 small steps pls!

 

[gwoppin]

4 weeks later...

> Started training again
> I have a new job in retail starting on the 10th - part time contract so low commitment, but plenty of overtime available
> ALL of my small daily habits have improved - hygiene, general mental clarity, less stress, etc...
> Entirely quit smoking cigarettes, will smoke a joint here or there with a friend which is nice


My confidence has absolutely shot through the stratosphere. After lots of self reflection, self acceptance, and being honest with myself about who i am and my sexuality (bisexual) the heavy weight from the veil of lies about how men 'have to be, or you're not a real man' has been lifted.

I feel free and confident and happy, not having to pretend to be somebody im not, which i realise lead to a lot of self destructive habits, as i was feeling stressed or just some type of way about not being my true authentic self.

The only bad thing right now seems to be ive become a coomer in this sexless year that has just passed, but i cannot justify looking for sex right now with all of the responsibilities and things i MUST do, before i begin the things i WANT to do.


Peace to y'alls and ill keep this thread updated, despite nobody interacting on this thread anymore hahaha

Thanks to all of the advice previously, you guys definitely contributed to this new self which is emerging.

 

[gwoppin]

Update:

> Started working as of the 10th August, and have only had 2 days off since
> Booked in 7 days / 55 ish hours per week
> Setting myself big and small self control challenges each day and hitting most of them each time, so the trust in myself has grown exponentially
> Training regularly
> Improved diet and hygiene
> Found myself diving into Greek Orthodox Christianity, which has been the absolute backbone of this metamorphosis

Hope youre all doing well in your endeavours!!

 

[gwoppin]

First payday today, credit card paid off

 

[The Anomaly]

- Great social skills, smoothest guy around

What do you think makes for a man with topnotch social skills and a charismatic personality? And do you yet have a plan to bridge the gap from where you are now in this regard, with where you would have reached your ideal in the future?

 

[gwoppin]

What do you think makes for a man with topnotch social skills and a charismatic personality? And do you yet have a plan to bridge the gap from where you are now in this regard, with where you would have reached your ideal in the future?

To say the right thing at the right time and adapt to the type of person im talking to, whilst remaining in my own frame / myself, and not get too in my head about what or how im going to say something.

Bridging the gap: Ive shattered all self doubt in all realms of my life, so now there are no barriers that used to make me freak out, get too in my head / ego, which used to freeze me up.

At this phase in my life im putting my head down and going (mostly) MIA socially to go full force getting myself back on track, but in the next few weeks / start of next year, i will be more stable and will start socialising again.

At work i do what i can to engage everybody in conversation, etc

TLDR - Saying the right thing at the right time, whilst remaining in frame, and will get there by practising more in social settings once i am more stable.