Need to change the broken record.

[Pozitron]

There's watchers and players.
You can be a watcher for years... for good.. or till you realize it and snap out of it. Most people stay this way because it's comfortable, easy. The other choice involves discomfort, effort, action, loosing at first..
But you get to choose.
Why most people choose watchers? Because it's easier and they intuitively choose the short time pleasure.
Watchers and ordinary and they're much more than 50% of us all.

I'm a watcher.

Hehe.. I remember when I first got here.. on this site. I haven't posted for a while. I've changed some of my views, I've grown and changed naturally, without effort.
But, I'm basically the same. I don't have a GF, I still stuck in theories and philosophies, I feel like askin' the same questions which tells me I keep making the same mistakes.
I don't know what I want.

I'm an AFC now and I know it.
I wanna be a player.. taking action.. doin' stuff.. having stories to tell, you know?

You guys, you've grown. You've became better.
I need help with this :

I return at times to being frustrated.. feeling bad and don't getting why.
I may start doing something but I'm never consistent with it. I try something new then I get back to my old habits.
I want to "get the hang of it" but I see there are all these ideas and concepts and stuff and I gather it all but I never get to master or apply any on it and feel it's too much.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

Man, I wanna be that guy that have all the answers, and can provide you with all the help you need; but alas, Im not.

I know where you're coming from, and I know where you are. I spent a considerable amount of time there. Just reading and stuff. I'd say I was actually there until I had 1 good night, and it all just snowballed. Slowly, but surely.

You keep asking the same questions, which means not only do you make the same mistakes; but you have the same approach. Change your approach.

Back in the day, I would think inside of me: "Damn..! I just need that really detailed laid out plan or blueprint on how to do this step by step." I felt that would make my life much simpler.

I would bookmark Sammo's (correct me if im wrong) post on how to improve yourself NOW. I didn't feel like I were ready, but the thing is, you will never be ready if you wait.

It's like procrastinating homework. You may trick yourself for a minute to think that everythink is ok, but the truth is; it's still there, lingering as a stress and fear factor in the back of your mind.

Reminding me; I gotta write my essay now.

 

[Pozitron]

So you're saying' I should apply Sammo's post "Your own journey "? Just do something now and stop trying to make the perfect plan or wait for the right time to do something?

I want to get the the snowball effect too, believe me.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

Now is always the right time. Do something different, change your approach. Try keeping a detailed journal.

 

[Nino-Tk]

Yeah I agree with Norwegian, start a journal player.

 

[Pozitron]

so make my own journal here or make one and keep it to myself?

 

[NorwegianDJ]

so make my own journal here or make one and keep it to myself?

that's your choice. What matters is that you're honest and leave nothing out. Stick to your goals and make detailed plans and progress.

 

[Pozitron]

I'll do that. I think that's the only thing that could help me change in the long run.

 

[scudge]

I'm in the same boat... And it sucks. Why? Because you know you have the tools to change, but you don't use them.

Those days are gone. Today I had a revelation. School starts for me in a few days, and I realized what a sh*tty summer Ive had. It's like having cancer and denying yourself chemo.

So I started standing a little straighter, talking a little louder, talking to that hot cashier at the store. Small steps leading up to that giant leap I'm taking in a few days.

I'm f*cking scared out of my mind and nervous as hell, but it's time to put a new record on the turntable.

Best of luck Pozitron.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

That's the spirit.
Think big, start small, begin now.

 

[Pozitron]

Thanks and good luck!
BTW.. If you view what you wanna change as a big change it's less probably you'll keep on changing.
The trick is to think about it as just editing( Nino is the man). You just need to edit yourself. Easy does it.. it's not a big deal.

Take action based on the best outcome for you and don't worry about stupid ****.

You know.. the key of happiness is to focus on the things that you can control while not attaching too much importance to the things you can't... so relax and enjoy yourself.

This thoughts help me when I'm low.. like in the moment I wrote that post.

Pozitron