I had been with the LTR for almost two years now, we had met my senior year in high school. She's the smartest girl I've ever seen, and for 5 months or so things were perfect. I was her first partner, she was my third. For 1.5 years, we were together every second of every day. Sex once a day. A little ways in i became a sort of dik and flirted with girls every now and then, but nothing serious. Just enough to bother her. stopped shortly after. Things were a little different after that, but it was all still very good. We had plans to marry and stay together.
Exclusivity was never an issue. I always felt like i could trust her (she had been cheated on by her only previous boyfriend). The only problem was that she never expressed herself. She lived in a sort of shell that she hadn't ever considered coming out of.
About three month's ago, she started at the state university, with me at a community college. We saw each other less and less, and she would start drinking more and more and party every Friday and Saturday with her friends. It came to the point where we would be hanging out once or twice in two weeks.
We broke up a few days ago, and it's been pretty hard for me. I realize that over the course of time I've reverted back to AFC, and hit hard during the actual breakup. Lately I've taken up skateboarding and am hitting the gym more often.
We both love each other very much. I still cant imagine myself staying with another girl. It was her idea to break up for a while (after fighting and almost breaking up every two weeks or so. she still is retarded when it comes to expressing exactly how she feels.), and that we'd get back together in a year or so where we left off. I agreed. I have been going through some family issues and haven't been having a good time with her away. I don't know how i fell about her drinking and hooking up with people. I'm very old fashioned in my convictions of monogamy and purity, however gay that sounds. I just like nice, clean girls. I understand the fear of only having one sexual partner for the rest of your life, but i do feel like i may have been safety netted a bit, even though now i'm placing the same feeling on her.
A week later, memories of her are still integrated into with everything i ever did before we broke up. We had talked and shared and done everything together. All of my old video games make me think of the times we spent together talking about them. I can't enjoy them any more. Everything i usually do just gets me down. I still think that she is a good person, and that things would be so perfect if we had met three or four years later.
I'm coming back to sosuave to reboot. it helped me alot during high school achieving confidence and self respect. I'm just looking for some thoughts on what to spend my time doing. I've severed my ties with most of the girls i knew, but I've got a date coming up on tomorrow. I've been wondering if i should stick with her when the time comes around. I don't know if i'd forgive her for leaving, but i know that i had hurt her in the past and that she was more vulnerable than i was. Just having a difficult time with this. I don't really care about hooking up with chicks, I've always been just looking for love. I like the idea of having a close partner.
Ill answer any questions you all have.
Looking for some general advice, and anything else pertinent.
-Dank
Exclusivity was never an issue. I always felt like i could trust her (she had been cheated on by her only previous boyfriend). The only problem was that she never expressed herself. She lived in a sort of shell that she hadn't ever considered coming out of.
About three month's ago, she started at the state university, with me at a community college. We saw each other less and less, and she would start drinking more and more and party every Friday and Saturday with her friends. It came to the point where we would be hanging out once or twice in two weeks.
We broke up a few days ago, and it's been pretty hard for me. I realize that over the course of time I've reverted back to AFC, and hit hard during the actual breakup. Lately I've taken up skateboarding and am hitting the gym more often.
We both love each other very much. I still cant imagine myself staying with another girl. It was her idea to break up for a while (after fighting and almost breaking up every two weeks or so. she still is retarded when it comes to expressing exactly how she feels.), and that we'd get back together in a year or so where we left off. I agreed. I have been going through some family issues and haven't been having a good time with her away. I don't know how i fell about her drinking and hooking up with people. I'm very old fashioned in my convictions of monogamy and purity, however gay that sounds. I just like nice, clean girls. I understand the fear of only having one sexual partner for the rest of your life, but i do feel like i may have been safety netted a bit, even though now i'm placing the same feeling on her.
A week later, memories of her are still integrated into with everything i ever did before we broke up. We had talked and shared and done everything together. All of my old video games make me think of the times we spent together talking about them. I can't enjoy them any more. Everything i usually do just gets me down. I still think that she is a good person, and that things would be so perfect if we had met three or four years later.
I'm coming back to sosuave to reboot. it helped me alot during high school achieving confidence and self respect. I'm just looking for some thoughts on what to spend my time doing. I've severed my ties with most of the girls i knew, but I've got a date coming up on tomorrow. I've been wondering if i should stick with her when the time comes around. I don't know if i'd forgive her for leaving, but i know that i had hurt her in the past and that she was more vulnerable than i was. Just having a difficult time with this. I don't really care about hooking up with chicks, I've always been just looking for love. I like the idea of having a close partner.
Ill answer any questions you all have.
Looking for some general advice, and anything else pertinent.
-Dank
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