Alright guys I finally made the decision and I decided to go with things and **** this chick, and once I start something I have to finish it or it pisses me off bad. Now my best friend is into this girl’s best friend. So we went on a double date, we hit some shisha at a shish bar, and then we took them to my friends home for another shisha in his apartment. At home me n my friend had made plans, so my friend took the girl he wanted into a separate room and my girl and I were lying on his bed. , we did some fluff talk I asked her for the kiss, she wasn’t rdy so we left the house, she wanted to get a smoke, we go outside we talk, and I talk in a way that we ended up kissing, like a small make out session. Once we made out, outside on a bench. I was the first to end the kissing session, and im like lets go upstairs. Before we enter their apartment we make out infront of the door. We go in and I see my friend and the girl in another room just kinda chillin by eachother, but they were like sitting in the dark lol, so I tell the girl “let’s not interrupt them” and I take the girl into another room. We lie on the bed after a while she asks me if I’m a virgin? I told her yes, which I think was a mistake. Then I asked her if she was? She said no. So im like, “you should guide me through it then huh” she smiles, so we change positions and few minutes’ later shes sitting on me, where I have my back leaning to the wall. W do some intense kissing. Then I started kissing down her neck onto her breast, but her boobs were like slightly covered. And man she had big jugs! Fvck lol. So Im about to reach her tit, but I hesitate just a few seconds and she pulls away and says. “hey im not gonna be you’re sex toy..you know” but shes smiling as shes saying it. So I quickly ask her “what do u want? What r u looking for?”. Quickly change the topic lol. What I think I should’ve done was pulled her shirt down and sucked on her tits without hesitation. . then she said that she didn’t want me to just **** her and then leave. but she also tells me that shes not looking for a long term relationship. So I tell her we can give it a try and see how it goes, cuz im not looking for anything serious either, We smile, and shes like let’s leave. Also when we were making out I asked her to help me with my boner, signalling my **** lol, she smiled and shook her head. So we walk out of the room. And my friend and the girl were tired of juz sitting around so we all go down for pizza and the night ends. So Im thinkin maybe take her out on a few dates etc. And then fvck her. And she wasn’t as fat as I thought like, she looked better when she was on me lol. But I guess its always like that. A lesson that I learned was that I should be way more confident dont stop doing my thang the very moment she try to end it, persistence persistence, persistence, just go there do my thing, you know instead of talking all that much maybe just do what I want. I aint letting go of her that easily though, not untill I lose ma virginity hah
