Hey guys, I first want to say thanks for all the help in my previous threads. But this time, I feel like it is really the end of my LTR of 9 months. I just wanted to give myself some self-gratification so bare with me.
-On Wednesday night my gf calls me and starts crying because she fainted from yoga because of the combination of stress and lack of food intake. I was pretty much there for her and she was really overwhelmed and happy afterwards. I am always the one she goes to if she has any problems because she has issues with her friends and family. So I get home and take a shower or what not, and then go online and we start talking. She was very sweet to me and the first thing I asked her was if she was going to go back to yoga the next day. She said yes, and i freaked out because she had just fainted and took it like nothing happen. So we get into this argument, and i completely explode, and at one point I told her, "I feel like I wasted my time with you." And i basically said it because everytime I give her advice she never follows it because she is very stubborn. Keep in mind that I am 20 years old, and she is 29 and we were already having problems with our relationship because of the age difference for the past couple of months. I feel like this "game" stuff can make me so controlling and manipulative and so protective against myself being AFC that I always usually get my way. For example;
1. She always drives to my house (30 minute drive) even if she has to be stuck in traffic for about 1 hour and 10 minutes all the time. I rarely see her and usually it's only once or twice a month I pick her up.
2. She buys me food all the time and gives me something to eat whenever she sees me.
3. Her friends already criticize me for my age, she felt like they were wrong and didn't say anything, but she has been there for me when I needed her support.
So I call her yesterday night, and she doesn't call me back. So I go online and message her to see what's up. She tells me she is really disappointed that I told her that I wasted her time and made her feel like she is down and why (the above reasons driving, food. etc..). So she said "you got what you wanted mr. king, are you happy now?" Keep in mind this girl is very very emotional, she can be sad or happy in one minute. She then tells me, "i can't hang out with a guy like this, I can't handle it" I say some arrogant stuff like, "I gave you chances too" and she just says "that's it now, I don't need anything from you, thank you very much" So before I slept I messaged her and said "We've had our ups and downs these past couple of months, but I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me." I really felt bad because I realized that she is a very sweet person and she does treat me very good, and I have realized that I did not really do the same for her after thinking about it. So what's my next move? I am trying not to be AFC, but this time it was my fault. Thanks guys, even if you don't reply, your time is greatly appreciated.
-On Wednesday night my gf calls me and starts crying because she fainted from yoga because of the combination of stress and lack of food intake. I was pretty much there for her and she was really overwhelmed and happy afterwards. I am always the one she goes to if she has any problems because she has issues with her friends and family. So I get home and take a shower or what not, and then go online and we start talking. She was very sweet to me and the first thing I asked her was if she was going to go back to yoga the next day. She said yes, and i freaked out because she had just fainted and took it like nothing happen. So we get into this argument, and i completely explode, and at one point I told her, "I feel like I wasted my time with you." And i basically said it because everytime I give her advice she never follows it because she is very stubborn. Keep in mind that I am 20 years old, and she is 29 and we were already having problems with our relationship because of the age difference for the past couple of months. I feel like this "game" stuff can make me so controlling and manipulative and so protective against myself being AFC that I always usually get my way. For example;
1. She always drives to my house (30 minute drive) even if she has to be stuck in traffic for about 1 hour and 10 minutes all the time. I rarely see her and usually it's only once or twice a month I pick her up.
2. She buys me food all the time and gives me something to eat whenever she sees me.
3. Her friends already criticize me for my age, she felt like they were wrong and didn't say anything, but she has been there for me when I needed her support.
So I call her yesterday night, and she doesn't call me back. So I go online and message her to see what's up. She tells me she is really disappointed that I told her that I wasted her time and made her feel like she is down and why (the above reasons driving, food. etc..). So she said "you got what you wanted mr. king, are you happy now?" Keep in mind this girl is very very emotional, she can be sad or happy in one minute. She then tells me, "i can't hang out with a guy like this, I can't handle it" I say some arrogant stuff like, "I gave you chances too" and she just says "that's it now, I don't need anything from you, thank you very much" So before I slept I messaged her and said "We've had our ups and downs these past couple of months, but I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me." I really felt bad because I realized that she is a very sweet person and she does treat me very good, and I have realized that I did not really do the same for her after thinking about it. So what's my next move? I am trying not to be AFC, but this time it was my fault. Thanks guys, even if you don't reply, your time is greatly appreciated.
Any other tips guys 