High Voltage
Don Juan
About a week ago I made out with a girl for the first time and I thought I would share what was going through my mind during the event and other little tidbits of information. My memory for detail is quite good, nothing presented here has been left out or modified.
Looking back I'm a little surprised that very few of my thoughts were positive, most were of disappointment.
First off this girl is 18 and I'm 23. She is in relatively good shape: no muscle-defined stomach but no belly either. I'm no authority on breast size, but perhaps a B? We were in a room with some people watching movies, she had a blanket over her and I was sitting beside her. I decided to play with her underneath the blanket.
This is all over he clothes: started at her thigh then worked over to rub her puzzy. Went up to her breasts and squeezed them a bit, was a little disappointed in that they were not even a handful and I couldn't feel her nipples through her shirt.
Got under her shirt and found out that her breasts didn't even fill her bra, I could slide my hand down them. I was playing with her nipples and again disappointed that they were soft and only got to little bumps when they were hard. Her entire nipple area could be covered by a dollar coin (1" in diameter).
At this point everybody else left, leaving just me and her. Soon as they left I started rubbing her puzzy over her pants again. Next I just leaned down and kissed her. Here were my thoughts:
- I can't believe this is happening
- all she's doing is just opening and closing her mouth
- guess she doesn't use tongue when kissing
- okay this is really boring and slimey
- I wonder why she has so much saliva
- her teeth hit mine, that is not really nice
- this is dull, what else can I do?
All these thoughts in like 90 seconds (probably less). At this point I decide to take off her bra. I slide her shirt up and without looking attempt to undo it with one hand. Couldn't do it. Tried both hands. Still couldn't figure it out. Lifted the back part up so I could see then finally unhooked it. Pushed it up and started to lick her nipples. Again my thoughts:
- her nipples are pretty small
- they don't get that hard
- this is just like licking the back of my hand
- okay so try sucking them
- yuck, I don't like that sound
- kissing was better then this
Timeframe for this set of thoughts maybe 15 seconds. Kissed her again for another minute, then breasts again for another 30 seconds or so. I was trying not to think, in hopes of getting "into it", but truth be told I was really bored, even though I knew I wanted this girl. At this point I figured to see if I could get sex, hoping that it would be better. I slid my hand underneath her panties - my thoughts:
- pubic hair, not as dense or as long as I thought
- its kinda cool that there is nothing there (no penis like we have)
- cool, girls do actually get wet like they say
- how come I'm not hard?
- how can people do this for hours? I'm bored of it already
I had my finger between her puzzy lips, just at the very top, about where the cl1t is I guess, although I couldn't see for sure since I was still kissing her. The warm wetness was pretty neat though in an abstract sort of way. Her panties were too tight so I couldn't get my hand down furthur to finger her, so I thought I would take all her clothes off. It was at this point that she said she was sorry and needed to go to bed. Anti-s1ut shield at work.
The entire episode lasted I imagine about 20 minutes, although I had been feeling her up for like 4 hours before everybody left and we got into the more heated session. It seemed like much longer because it was so boring. I have no idea how people can make out for *hours*, hopefully I'll find out.
In retrospect I know I wasn't hard because she wasn't doing much in return I guess (she had her hands beneath my shirt and was rubbing all around but thats it). At the time I was really relaxed (I was sober too), but afterwards walking home I felt like I had food poisoning and as if I was going to vomit. I guess I was just freaked out over what had just happened.
Of course I want to do it again to see if things improve. You know what the crazy thing is? Every time I'm eating with my hands I think of where my finger has been and it turns my stomach a bit. Keep in mind I've dissected more dead animals then I can remember, including spiders, pigs, mink, fish, sharks, and parasitic worms. Weird yes?
I would be curious to know how others' first experiences relate to mine. Hope you enjoyed the read.
- HV
Looking back I'm a little surprised that very few of my thoughts were positive, most were of disappointment.
First off this girl is 18 and I'm 23. She is in relatively good shape: no muscle-defined stomach but no belly either. I'm no authority on breast size, but perhaps a B? We were in a room with some people watching movies, she had a blanket over her and I was sitting beside her. I decided to play with her underneath the blanket.
This is all over he clothes: started at her thigh then worked over to rub her puzzy. Went up to her breasts and squeezed them a bit, was a little disappointed in that they were not even a handful and I couldn't feel her nipples through her shirt.
Got under her shirt and found out that her breasts didn't even fill her bra, I could slide my hand down them. I was playing with her nipples and again disappointed that they were soft and only got to little bumps when they were hard. Her entire nipple area could be covered by a dollar coin (1" in diameter).
At this point everybody else left, leaving just me and her. Soon as they left I started rubbing her puzzy over her pants again. Next I just leaned down and kissed her. Here were my thoughts:
- I can't believe this is happening
- all she's doing is just opening and closing her mouth
- guess she doesn't use tongue when kissing
- okay this is really boring and slimey
- I wonder why she has so much saliva
- her teeth hit mine, that is not really nice
- this is dull, what else can I do?
All these thoughts in like 90 seconds (probably less). At this point I decide to take off her bra. I slide her shirt up and without looking attempt to undo it with one hand. Couldn't do it. Tried both hands. Still couldn't figure it out. Lifted the back part up so I could see then finally unhooked it. Pushed it up and started to lick her nipples. Again my thoughts:
- her nipples are pretty small
- they don't get that hard
- this is just like licking the back of my hand
- okay so try sucking them
- yuck, I don't like that sound
- kissing was better then this
Timeframe for this set of thoughts maybe 15 seconds. Kissed her again for another minute, then breasts again for another 30 seconds or so. I was trying not to think, in hopes of getting "into it", but truth be told I was really bored, even though I knew I wanted this girl. At this point I figured to see if I could get sex, hoping that it would be better. I slid my hand underneath her panties - my thoughts:
- pubic hair, not as dense or as long as I thought
- its kinda cool that there is nothing there (no penis like we have)
- cool, girls do actually get wet like they say
- how come I'm not hard?
- how can people do this for hours? I'm bored of it already
I had my finger between her puzzy lips, just at the very top, about where the cl1t is I guess, although I couldn't see for sure since I was still kissing her. The warm wetness was pretty neat though in an abstract sort of way. Her panties were too tight so I couldn't get my hand down furthur to finger her, so I thought I would take all her clothes off. It was at this point that she said she was sorry and needed to go to bed. Anti-s1ut shield at work.
The entire episode lasted I imagine about 20 minutes, although I had been feeling her up for like 4 hours before everybody left and we got into the more heated session. It seemed like much longer because it was so boring. I have no idea how people can make out for *hours*, hopefully I'll find out.
In retrospect I know I wasn't hard because she wasn't doing much in return I guess (she had her hands beneath my shirt and was rubbing all around but thats it). At the time I was really relaxed (I was sober too), but afterwards walking home I felt like I had food poisoning and as if I was going to vomit. I guess I was just freaked out over what had just happened.
Of course I want to do it again to see if things improve. You know what the crazy thing is? Every time I'm eating with my hands I think of where my finger has been and it turns my stomach a bit. Keep in mind I've dissected more dead animals then I can remember, including spiders, pigs, mink, fish, sharks, and parasitic worms. Weird yes?
I would be curious to know how others' first experiences relate to mine. Hope you enjoyed the read.
- HV