I am still struggling with where to go in life. I have really advanced in looking for jobs, but at the moment they will only be retail (shops) as creative design/graphics jobs are hard to come by.
Also looking back I feel I have had a totally naive view of life in my teens and early twenties. Relationships or any intimacy with a girl have been virtually non-existent. At school I was made to feel outcasted and that kept me away from girls, it was not helped by the fact that many girls at the time were not the nicest I ever ran into, and this was even in college, some just gave me the dirty looks and that caused me to retreat.
I have let this go on for years not realising that this is what life is like sometimes- these are just facts of life that you get people like that, but why do I always feel shot down?
People always seem to outcast or ridicule those who aren't the 'norm' and this makes me hate people. There were a lot of social divisions in college. I had been volunteering with a friend who stayed with people with 'special needs' in her college and the exact same thing happened.
Some days I hate being a man because I was brought into this world as a man but feel I can't offer anything that is highly desired by women.
Now a 24 year old virgin, should have I altered my thinking much more when I was younger, because for years I have had no confidence or any self-respect?
Also looking back I feel I have had a totally naive view of life in my teens and early twenties. Relationships or any intimacy with a girl have been virtually non-existent. At school I was made to feel outcasted and that kept me away from girls, it was not helped by the fact that many girls at the time were not the nicest I ever ran into, and this was even in college, some just gave me the dirty looks and that caused me to retreat.
I have let this go on for years not realising that this is what life is like sometimes- these are just facts of life that you get people like that, but why do I always feel shot down?
People always seem to outcast or ridicule those who aren't the 'norm' and this makes me hate people. There were a lot of social divisions in college. I had been volunteering with a friend who stayed with people with 'special needs' in her college and the exact same thing happened.
Some days I hate being a man because I was brought into this world as a man but feel I can't offer anything that is highly desired by women.
Now a 24 year old virgin, should have I altered my thinking much more when I was younger, because for years I have had no confidence or any self-respect?
