My life is all over the place. Need advice from elder DJ's.

[Chamber36]

So my life is getting out of hand. I am about 1 or 2 weeks behind schedule when it comes to school. I didn't get a good grip on it ever since I started back in September. I am still not 100% sure I want to be studying Cognitive Neurosciences. I wouldn't mind psychology, medicine or engineering either. I tried engineering last year and it spoke to me because I was puzzling all the time. I sort of didn't believe in myself though, couldn't get up early, and I quit after only 1-2 months.

I still am having an impossible time getting up before 9 AM as well. It's 3 AM as I type this.

Anyway, this summer I had what the germans refer to as a "Hoersturz"(hearing crash), in which my hearing was almost annihilated. The atlas (top vertebrae in my neck) was apparently twisted and that's what caused my hearing to become sensitive and then after a certain rave the ringing in my ears didn't stop and I still have a slight ringing in my ears to this day. I had some treatment and my hearing is almost good as new. It's been about 6 months and I am finally coping. Soon as it happened I quit smoking weed, because the weed made it louder. I can't go to night clubs anymore because of the damage it would do to my ears. Though I do go sometimes with earplugs.

It's fvckin pvssy that got me in this mess. If there wasn't so much pvssy keeping me around that rave this summer, my ears might not have been damaged as much. I swear.

I fell down the stairs last christmas, and my neck was quite painful for about 4 months. I went to a physio-therapist, and he told me the spine was still aligned. Had I known about Orthopaedists or ostheopasts, I would have had my spine checked by one of them.

Anyway, I haven't done any more MMA/Jiu Jitsu since last christmas, and I really want to continue progressing in martial arts. Since I quit smoking and drinking, and even MSG, I eat pretty damn healthy. I could put this to good use and work out regularly.

Because of Uni though, I won't subscribe to a martial arts class, because I don't think I could handle it. I have also moved into an appartment by myself, only 2/3 months after I got this tinnitus(ringing in the ears). When it happened I don't think my mom handled the situation correctly. You guys might say I am responsible for my own health, but I was really in shock, and could barely do anything anymore. A "Hoersturz" with tinnitus is a serious matter. I would have given a limb for my hearing to be back to normal. I would probably even prefer cancer to something like that. It's messed up, believe me. The whole time I was trying to convince my mom this ringing is the most horrible thing that could happen, she thought I was going psychotic because I quit smoking weed. So anyway, my relationship with my mom is still good, but I don't trust her anymore and I don't think she's nearly as reliable as I thought she was.

Besides all that, while I was suffering from the tinnitus she found me a roommate who was supposed to be a decent girl. I made two threads about her already. She has now stolen one of my cupboards and I am probably going to call a locksmith to change the locks tomorrow, then I will kick her out of the house, even though I signed a contract and her mom's a lawyer. I found out she stole my sh*t, so that's over with. Note, I could see red flags from day one.

Anyway, I don't think I've ever had a year this ****ty before. I can take it though, I am really growing up.

I am going to see my school counselor tomorrow to see if I should be studying cognitive neurosciences at all.

I am 23, I could start studying medicine in the caribbean next year, but I don't know how respected I would be as a doctor having started medicine at 23 on a tropical island. My dad says it's better to just study in Europe, but it's hard to get into medicine here. Same for psychology, which I'm interested in as well. I don't really see a future in psychology. I do like the 'game' aspect to it though, and I am already interested in Jung, dream analysis, etc. I could go the same route if I do medicine and go into psychiatry.

If I see the summation of my year I suppose I deserve to go to the caribbean for a while and possibly study there. Right now while I go to Uni in Amsterdam, I refuse to take up more responsibilities like driving or martial arts classes. I am trying to focus on school.

I have been fvcking more and more prostitutes as well. Almost weekly now.

So if anyone can help me figure this out I would greatly appreciate it. Sorry for the wall of text. I just haven't posted in a while and I need to still cope with everything.

 

[Chamber36]

Thx for the advice brad. I slept over it and I see that motivation is the most important thing. Had a pretty profound dream. I met Bas Rutten and another famous guy.

I am a little confused though. You say I should aim for medical school. I suppose I do agree. I would have to quit cognitive neurosciences though, so I'll have a year to myself in which I could work on getting my license and working out, and just plain sorting myself out. I did that last year, but that's before all this crap happened to me this summer.

I don't think I'm on the verge of dropping out. If I do quit neuroscience, I will probably continue on something else next year. Most likely medical school, as I see it now.

 

[SgtSplacker]

Crazy advice for this forum but stay away from women too....

Not forever, but just until you get your feet back on the ground and your health under control. Like others have said this is an important part of your life. After you finish school will be a better time to focus on women, not now. Sounds like you are lacking direction right now. Focus on school man, hookers later. Figure out what direction you are going first in life. Then bring the HOs back in...

 

[Packers2010]

all i hear is complain complain complain.

haven't that said ( WE ALL GO THREW THIS FAZE INCLUDING ME)

firstly if you are not 100% passionate about what you are doing. don't do it. i'm doinf fincial services. it's a bunch of crappy classes threw togther ( OH&S with some managerial crap thrown in, MS OFFICE payroll and finance) but i LOVE IT! it gives me such a broner man. i can not tell you how much i love getting up in the morning and driving for close to an hour to make it to class! (fook perth traffic)

everyone has a choice in life. to do something then cry victim, or DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

get off the hookers man. unless you shipped the Main event and you deciding how many hook and how much blow you are going to do. this though shouldn't even enter you head. ever!

your unsure if you should be going to the Caribbean. what are you crazy? i just spent 7 months in a village in wales with a population less then 250 people and it's 30 mins from town each way.

I FOOKING LOVED IT! it was the best time of my LIFE MAN! the more experiences you have in life the better! now since i came back. i enrolled in school. I'm doing WELL in school ( thanks to my school friends ) and I am more confident in myself then ever.

sure it's not perfect. most nights i sleep in a share bed with my mother. you think that brings me down? **** NO! i know i'm gunna get my ass out of here and into an apparent in the city as soon as school is over! not to mention i sleep in a BED not a couch. think about that.

you talk about MMA? i used to do boxing when i was 14. i LOVED IT. now i have an eye condition that porvents me from seeing too well. so i can't do it no more. i wish i could. but i can't not to worry. i will be in the gym next year getting ripped ( money issue atm. need new shoes first)

you don't NEED girls. you need the IDEA of what a girl is. i've been here to. once you BELIEVE you can get girls. then BOOM your on your way. right now i haven't been laid since my 2 years ago. i don't care because i know i am going to get better in this.

sacrifice who you are today to become a better person tomorrow.

that should be where your head is right now.


feel free to pm me. i'm not one of the djs around here i'm just a lonely pilgrim. ( that would be a sick user name someone use it!) but i can still help you threw this wick sick world we call life

 

[Chamber36]

Excuse me if I have issues, man.

I used to be an advocate of the think positive attitude, with the law of attraction and everything. I just don't have a fvckin clue what I want anymore. I can see that I am complaining a lot, I just wanted to give you all a clear picture of what's going on with me.

I used to live in the caribbean, from when I was 5 to when I was 11, so I know that it's wonderful. I do miss it.

I saw the school counselor and she recommended I see a student psychologist and a career advisor so that I can figure out what I want to do with myself and my future.

The point is that I am not taking care of my responsibilities and my head is all over the place.

Anyway I suppose I will check out that student psychologist and see if they can help me.

 

[Bible_Belt]

If she's on the lease, you can't kick out your roommate for taking your stuff. She'll come back with the police and a personal order of protection, which she'll get automatically because she's a woman. Then it will be you who is kicked out. And that does not relieve you of your obligation to still pay rent on the apartment you are not allowed to be in. And her lawyer Mom will help her make it happen.

What part of the Caribbean are you considering? It's got to be a larger island if there's a med school.

 

[Chamber36]

If she's on the lease, you can't kick out your roommate for taking your stuff. She'll come back with the police and a personal order of protection, which she'll get automatically because she's a woman. Then it will be you who is kicked out. And that does not relieve you of your obligation to still pay rent on the apartment you are not allowed to be in. And her lawyer Mom will help her make it happen.

What part of the Caribbean are you considering? It's got to be a larger island if there's a med school.

My dad is a lawyer. I guarantee you he's better than her b*tch mom as well, and he says that as soon as she steals my **** the contract is null & void, and theft is sufficient grounds to kick her out on the spot. She told the other tenant that she took the damn thing. He says he's willing to sign a piece of paper with his "testimony" in case **** gets out of hand. She also could never get me kicked out because I own the apartment. I'm the landlord.

The island is Grenada btw. I wouldn't mind studying medicine but I heard it's pretty hard to study medicine. My brother says I should do psychology because I am already interested in that by default. I bought the book Man and His Symbols by C. G. Jung. Haven't had time to read it though. I would prefer medicine because of the career prospects though. Psychology, while interesting, couldn't give me the freedom I'd have with medicine.

 

[Bible_Belt]

That must be some Holland-specific law, but if your dad is an attorney, you will do ok.

I forgot Grenada had a med school. Part of the US justification for invading Grenada in the early 80's was to rescue the med students. It was in the Clint Eastwood movie "Heartbreak Ridge."

My ex-wife is from St Lucia, and I got to spend some time there. The south Caribbean is an amazing place. If you're trying to make as much money as possible from a med degree, Grenada's probably not what you want. But if money is your number one goal, then you shouldn't be a doctor anyway.

 

[Packers2010]

Excuse me if I have issues, man.

I used to be an advocate of the think positive attitude, with the law of attraction and everything. I just don't have a fvckin clue what I want anymore. I can see that I am complaining a lot, I just wanted to give you all a clear picture of what's going on with me.

I used to live in the caribbean, from when I was 5 to when I was 11, so I know that it's wonderful. I do miss it.

I saw the school counselor and she recommended I see a student psychologist and a career advisor so that I can figure out what I want to do with myself and my future.

The point is that I am not taking care of my responsibilities and my head is all over the place.

Anyway I suppose I will check out that student psychologist and see if they can help me.

that's great man. the complain comment is more a refection of me though. i used to complain a shead load.. not not so much, i still do complain, though it's more my mind pointing out things that need to change in my life. like the fact i sleep with a dog in the bed because my mother wnats him there. he snore as loud as 40 jets screaming over my head.

so i don't get much sleep.