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the only thing I am proud of is the way I approached her, she was the stuck up kind of girl, the kind I could never dream myself being with. I saw her talking to my friend in class, and then I spoke to her, turns out to be that she is from the same highschool as me. SO we talk and I act confident. She was the first girl to ever like me and look hot too, she was the first girl to ever like my act or even like my personality a little bit. She had no dad, which made it easier, plus she had a low self esteem about herself, yet she looked hot. So it made it easy for me to talk to her, cuz she looked hot, yet she had a low self esteem. She was quite hott, yet she was down to earth becasue she had a low self esteem, she didnt think she was pretty. Made it easy for me then.
plus... I did things with her that I had never done with a girl period. I was a virgin, I never had been in a car with a girl who drove ME, Id never had a girl i went to the beach with, I never had a girl I went to their houses with. This was the first time for ALOOOT of things for me. First time holding hands with a girls, first time making out on a first date, first time i went over to a girls house, first time being hugged, first time locking arms, first time getting head. First time going to a motel.
She was maddd cool, she told me that she never thinks about herself. She actually cared alot, its just that i was SOOOOO god damned insecure she gave up, but she realllliiiiii cared about me look at this convo.
1=me
2=her
2: bak baby
1: hew sweeti
1: hey*
2: so wat did u decide to do today
1: oh im gonna go hang out with my freind paras
2: very good....im very proud of u sweety
1: thank you
2: ur welcome...now back to talking about saturday :-D
1: lo,
1: lol
1: no
1: did u find ur moms old bf
2: no baby im still lookin..bc to b perfectly honest if she hadnt listened to her stupid jealous friends, they probably woulda stayed together, n she prolly woulda married him
1: realli
2: yea
1: that goes to show, that u shud listin to ur heart
1: you know that this whoel thing might have been a blessing in disguise
2: wat do u mean baby
1: i meant that all the things i told u tolday and all the things I told u before, its made me realize alot of things
1: but about ur mom, waht did her friends say
2: they told her that shes crazy for stayin with only one person all thru high school and that she has to meet new ppl....so she broke up with him....and yno wat the friend that pushed her to do it the most went out with him right afetr my mom ended it
1: ohhh, man
1: haha, this sounds like me
1: doesnt it
1: ive already decide in my head tha that i wud be happy beign with u the rest of my life, its cool
1: being*
1: i just hope i keep feelin that way
2: me 2
1: I think the reason i wouldnt would be bcuz of what ur motehr feel victim to, that smae type of thinking
nskkam: fell*
2: exactly
1: do u think if she had stayed with him that she wud have had a better married life
2: probably they did everything together (sadd we also did everything together, very few like her come around.)
1: hmm.. realli
2: yea she used to go on vacation with his family and he was always by her house
1: u mean ur grandmas house
1: :-D
2: yea
2: lol
1: well.. everyones gotta do whats good for them or what they think is good for them at the time
nskkam: I also know that ur special, theres something about you baby, that I know is diffrent that most other girls
1: i realli mean it
1: like not as ur bf but as a person ur diffrent than most ppl
1: I think being with you for the rest of my life would be an amazing thing, u wud make my life so amazing
1: as long as I dont let the thinking that I gotta go out and meet other ppl
2: u really really feel that way about me baby
1: yes i do
2: that makes me so happy bc i feel exactly the same about u
1: I mean i know if im 35 **** like that isnt gonna make a diffrence on how many hookups i have
1: even when i turn like 26
1: no its not
1: Its gonna be money and career
2: right
1: and life
1: so its better i dont destroy something so wonderful to satisfy my ego and do things that teenagers do
1: Im one yr from 20
1: im not a kid anymore
2: thank u so much for feeling that way sweetheart, it means so much to me
1: or a teen, im a full fledged adult.
1: It makes so much sense
2: i love u
1: I luv u too, i cud tell this was bothering u
1: the fact that i didnt want to stay with u
1: bcuz i wanted to go meet other ppl
2: just a little bit
1: and thats not bcuz im nothappy now, but just to fill my ego
1: but that wont even matter later on in life, all u need is ppl to care about u
1: and i already have that
1: cuz im sure ur mom doesnt give a rats ass on who she hooked up with when she was 16 and im usre it doesnt make her a less confident adult if she hadnt, im sure she wants just somebody to care for her
2: exactly
1: cuz ur only a teen for maybe realli 4-5 yrs cuz u hit puberty at 14 and then for like 10 yrs till ur 25-26 thats when u start to look for someone to spend ur life with which is gonna be from, 26-60, thats damn long. and im sure ull regret why u let go fo that person and finding someone who cares so much is very hard
1: so i found u at say 19
1: thats 6 yrs early before ppl start to think about ppl they want to spend their life
2: yea it is
2: god baby u are so amzing
1: in those 6yrs, i wudnt have hooked up that much anyway
1: thats not me, i mean if i didnt do it when i was 14 or 15 i wudnt when im older
2: do u hav any idea how much i love u
1: only when u try to choke me when u come
1: :-D
2: i dnt do it that often
2: do i?
1: lol no
2: :-[
1: ok then sweety
1: no realli baby, i know u love me, how much sometimes i even get surpised
1: surprised
1: cuz i cant even imagine on ow u cud love me more than u do
1: how*
1: like i wudnt be able to think of anymore ways u cud love me that u already do
1: u do everything
2: u r really are an amazing guy...i dnt kno wat i would do if i never had met u that day
2: but sweety
nskkam: yes
2: im goin crazy thinkin about saturday :-*
1: haha lol
1: well think about when ur in the bathroom stall getting urself off
1: i feel like staying with u is a smart choice
1: i retired 6 yrs out of the game
1: and i was never good at it anyway
2: all i can think of is me bein ontop of u with the covers pulled over us and u moanin so loud right at the same times im moanin and the lookin at ur expression as i go really slow and seein how good it feels for u
1: and im so lucky that i found u and I know that finding someone even close to you is a life work of trial and error, like ur life, u had to go through so may relationships to find me. haha look at me, i found u at my first try
2: did u even read wat i wrote
2: lol
1: no i am blocking out any sexual material right now
1: This convo is PG
1: or G
1: better
2: it was even more amzaing wen i was layin down, and i felt like i could barely breathe, and then all i felt was a burst of warm liquid in my ***** and i felt it come out and it was soooooo relaxing
1: babe, be as HONEST as u can be, do u think that if we went our seperate ways that you wud be able to find someone like me that cared so much for you, Im sure ull be able to get into a realtionship and I wud manage to somehow to but what do u think
1: okay
1: jeez yes yess it was nice
1: thas how i feel everytime
1: thats what ejaculation feels
1: like
1: :-D
1: do most ppl in a realtionship care so much for each other as much as we do?
1: relationship*
1: or did ur last bfs do the same things i did, except that i dont cheat on u, but did u last bf have like pet names and do the little things that make me pecial or does everyone do them
1: special*
1: for example like how u buttoned my shirt
1: yest that was so nice
