Part One
#4
This girl was 2 years older than me. It started with my brother rightly saying I didn't have the balls to make a move on a girl, so I said I did and he told me to get someone's phone number. So I went up to this girl while she was sitting with her friends the next day and said just that: something like "my brother didn't think I could get a phone number, can I have yours". I picked her because I thought she was one of the hottest girls in the school. She was astonished and gave it to me. Then my normal self kicked in and I reverted to weakness once I realised not only had I succeeded but now this girl was onto me. Like story #3, this was also in 7th grade. She greeted with me in a flirty way several times after this until she gave up because I was too terrified to do anything. I remember once in the spanish lessons she said "hi Salem
" and I literally froze up and could barely answer. Another time we were in a room and everyone was sitting down in rows. She pretty loudly said "hi Salem!" and looked at me, I had the same reaction as the other time. I literally was frozen in place - I couldn't say anything even though I wanted to because I was so terrified.
All right, I think that does it for the
really obvious early lifers that were also girls I myself wanted...
Part Two
#5
She was 2 years older than me. I spotted her in my first week of gymnasium. My social skills and life hit rock bottom in 8th grade with my school transfer and I only started to recover in 9th grade. I wasn't used to seeing girls anymore. Coming to a school full of girls who were trying to look sexy almost left me unable to breathe at one point when I was sitting in a sofa and a girl I at the time thought was a pure sex bomb walks up the stairs right in front of it. But that's not who this story is about. This girl was everything I looked for physically. She was tall, thick and had a pretty face. I couldn't believe it when I saw her, and it took me a lot of times to actually process that she was real and there was the possibility of hitting on her. So one day I guess I found my balls somewhere and I just decided to stand up and go hit on her even though she wasn't even alone. She was astonished that I'd approached her and looked at me like she was in a smiling shock, I told her I was gonna do something (I think) and she nervously said "can't you do it to her?!" and pointed at her friend. I said no, I'm doing it to you. So she gave in and closed her eyes. I guess she thought I was gonna kiss her, but I.. sigh... all I did was spray some perfume and ask if she liked it. She was as disappointed as I am in hindsight when writing this but it did open her up.
Then it happened again. We'd pass each other by and she'd greet me, but I'd freeze up. I knew I was fvcking up but I didn't know what to do or how to get ahold of myself. In hindsight I could just have grabbed her and gone somewhere kind of secluded and started making out, but I had literally zero experience at this point, didn't know what I was doing and worst of all - I knew I didn't know what I was doing and that fvcking up could have grave consequences. Now you might think that it was over here, but it wasn't. Months or a year later, this girl actually started inviting me to watch her play with her sports team on facebook. She invited me without saying anything, and get this,
I asked another girl what she thought this could mean. A girl who ironically enough I'd also approached, but this one had a boyfriend and wasn't as stunningly good looking as the other ones so I grew disinterested in her over time (although she would end up taking my virginity).
So I came and watched her play. Twice. I did nothing. I didn't ask her out. I didn't make a move on her. To my credit I did try in a half-assed way to catch her after her second game, but she had gone home because of team issues. These days, this girl won't re-add me on facebook (after I stupidly "cleansed" it from people I wasn't actively talking to) although my interest in her is also gone because she is slim now.
#6
This girl was as old as me. She went to a different school but in the same big building. When the school photo catalogue came I went through it and found this guy in her class (at the time I paid no attention to her other than I thought she looked cute on the photo, hadn't met her IIRC) who I decided was going to be my new friend, so I added him on facebook. Then I integrated our social groups so we hung out together over the summer break. One of the first memories I have of her is when a bunch of us were out by a lake. I was changing clothes behind a bush, and she started talking about how she wanted to see my d!ck or something (yes, something like that) and smiling at me. I had no idea what to do. I just joked it off and didn't think much of it.
I don't remember how long ago after that this next thing was, but it was at least the next year. I thought about which girls I could ask out in the present so I could fvck and get experience, and I talked with her because even I'd figured out she liked both me and having a lot of sex. So I took her to a lounge, and what happened there was both one of the dumbest things I've ever done, and one of the most clear displays of competition anxiety I've ever seen. I knew I had to be ballsy and dare to do things so I led her in and went straight to a sofa occupied by a few girls. One of them was very sweet and flirty, which even at a distance helped make up my mind to go there - I was drawn to her.
I figured I'd rather have this new girl and gave the one I came with second rate attention. To my joy, it was really easy to joke and talk with this new girl, nothing like the tension I felt trying to make conversation with the one I was with (due to no fault of hers). Looking back, I shouldn't even have taken her to the lounge, a stupid idea in the first place. I should and could've just taken her to some back alley, started making out and went home to her place and fvcked, but alas - I was still clueless and inexperienced. Anyway... she starts doing stuff like leaving the sofa and standing a few meters from it, in an open and even verbal protest at what I was doing. I felt bad for her and tried to make her come back, giving her a little more attention, and the new girl also invited her.
Turned out that a bunch of other people I knew had planned a night out there that same day. I switched groups back and forth a few times IIRC, but I somehow became too nervous to "approach" the group of girls I'd already settled in with from before and so I stuck with the people I knew. I was "planning" on getting the new girl's number, but eventually she left without telling me. I tried to find her but she was gone. I said to the new group, "we had it great...!" and the girl I brought along with me from the start, who by now was sitting in my lap, very truthfully said "doesn't seem like she thought so". I put my arms around her waist at some point. When I removed them after a long while, she put them back around. I could've taken her out or away at any time. I could've sweet talked her and made out, escalating into sex. Did I do that? you know me by now - of course not. I did sh!t except presumably make her think I was a weak @sshole.
#7
Oh, you thought I was done? this new girl in our class started some time in the autumn or right after the winter break. I immediately took notice of her, because she was more composed and sultry than the other girls in my class. She was two years older. We started talking, and I had quite a bit of 1-on-1 time with her in school. Then at a house party, me and her somehow ended up in a room alone. We sat down on the bed but the door was unlocked. I was very drunk and passed out not long after, one of the worst mishaps ever because I missed probably the best house party I would have been able to experience. I drank so much because I was in charge of leading all of the people to my buddy's home when they arrived and when the big group of people came, I wanted to give them a fun greeting and be a fun "vice host".
Anyway, I guess she got up and left once she realised not only was I really drunk and the door unlocked with people coming in, but I showed no signs of escalation or sexuality. This girl tagged me in some pictures, like one of a huge black c0ck. Later on this girl invited me to a big party, I went there but had no good social skills but it lead me on to girl #8. This girl too will not add me on facebook today.
#8
So I met this girl at the end of the party that #7 brought me to. She was cleaning up after and I had to stay to get my stuff for a reason I don't remember, either they couldn't find my jacket or I'd lost the note to get my jacket, something like that. So this girl takes a liking to me. It ends with her laughing at something I said and her kissing me. I said, "that was a long time ago". She kissed me again. I ... I ..... I didn't do anything. I didn't kiss her back, I did nothing. I ended up actually leaving with her and some other guy who sealed the deal with her immediately, I think he even made a reference to me dropping the ball. That girl was fun, cute and horny, and escalated on ME, but I completely fvcked it.
Think I'm getting done? I'm not even halfway through part two, and I forgot someone in part 1 that I'll have to add later. Remember the perfume I used with #5? well... a teaser is that it became my favourite girl perfume that I kept around on me for sniffing because this girl used it. Stay tuned for the next part of my failures... lol
