First time posting, hi guys c: I found here after someone showed me the book of pook, but my situation isn't that normal...
Basically, I'm 21 and I've been single all my life. I usually fall for a girl for years and usually she'll like me back, but I'll be too much of a wimp to do anything about it. Now, I'm in love with this girl (and I have been for 3 years) and I've been very good friends with for about 5 years now, but she has a boyfriend (who I was actually close with a year or two ago).
In January, she spent the night at my place and then we unexpectedly started making out. She later told me she didn't expect it to happen but she's falling for me too. Over the next month we saw each other (and I even lost my virginity to her) but she told me she just can't leave her boyfriend.
I've tried not talking to her but she's got a LOT to deal with in her life and she's been telling me stuff she hasn't told anyone else - I can't just walk out of her life, it would cripple her. And I don't want to steal her away, both because a) I don't think she'd actually leave her boyfriend and b) if she'd cheat on him, she'd cheat on me, I'm not naive.
I literally don't do anything with my time. I have nothing to do, and the city I'm in has little to do at night, or maybe I'm just making excuses not to go out and meet people. I want to get over her but still be there for her but I'm so whipped it's pathetic. Every time I see her I get depressed when I have to leave because I know she'll be with her boyfriend at night. But meanwhile, I sit at home watching shows. I can't even pick up a decent hobby, and at university I have no TV to waste my life away on gaming.
Sigh. What do I do? I have intense one-itis and I've struggled with it for years, and I'm new to this whole thing so I can't just go out tonight and meet a girl (or can I?) I know I need to restructure my life but with this weighing down on me, she's all I think about. And she texts me so often I can't get peace of mind, I feel guilty when I ignore her texts. If it were as simple as walking away, I'd just do the NC challenge.
Sorry if this is too long btw :x
Basically, I'm 21 and I've been single all my life. I usually fall for a girl for years and usually she'll like me back, but I'll be too much of a wimp to do anything about it. Now, I'm in love with this girl (and I have been for 3 years) and I've been very good friends with for about 5 years now, but she has a boyfriend (who I was actually close with a year or two ago).
In January, she spent the night at my place and then we unexpectedly started making out. She later told me she didn't expect it to happen but she's falling for me too. Over the next month we saw each other (and I even lost my virginity to her) but she told me she just can't leave her boyfriend.
I've tried not talking to her but she's got a LOT to deal with in her life and she's been telling me stuff she hasn't told anyone else - I can't just walk out of her life, it would cripple her. And I don't want to steal her away, both because a) I don't think she'd actually leave her boyfriend and b) if she'd cheat on him, she'd cheat on me, I'm not naive.
I literally don't do anything with my time. I have nothing to do, and the city I'm in has little to do at night, or maybe I'm just making excuses not to go out and meet people. I want to get over her but still be there for her but I'm so whipped it's pathetic. Every time I see her I get depressed when I have to leave because I know she'll be with her boyfriend at night. But meanwhile, I sit at home watching shows. I can't even pick up a decent hobby, and at university I have no TV to waste my life away on gaming.
Sigh. What do I do? I have intense one-itis and I've struggled with it for years, and I'm new to this whole thing so I can't just go out tonight and meet a girl (or can I?) I know I need to restructure my life but with this weighing down on me, she's all I think about. And she texts me so often I can't get peace of mind, I feel guilty when I ignore her texts. If it were as simple as walking away, I'd just do the NC challenge.
Sorry if this is too long btw :x