To add, and this just happened like, 10 mintues ago.
My dad's side of my family, my dad is the youngest of 4 kids. His 2nd oldest brother has Sickle Cell. Not, the Lefteye cute I an still do **** sickle cell, I mean full blown, can't run, can't do anything seriously sickle cell.
He is in the hospital, and, from what I hear, it doesn't look good, at all. I just left little rock, will be leaving again to go back tonight, the second I heard that, it was a no brainier. Easily my fav uncle.
But you know what is ****ed up? my dad couldn't even call me and ****ing tell me, his brother was in the hospital. I had to hear it from my mom. I say I had a normal childhood, but I didn't, being raised by my mom even though my dad was around, he didn't live with us.
how ****ed up is your relationship with your son when you can't call your oldest son and say your uncle is extremely sick you need to come home.
For who I am I think I turned out quite well, but, I had o have my issues. I'm extremely independent, to the point where I really just don't trust people. My drug addiction, is a direct result of my upbringing, I am fully convinced of this. We don't talk. My dad does not know how to hold a normal conversation with me, without talking about the women he is ****ing or talking about the cowboys. It's quite ****ed up.
Then, you have people talking about how marriage is going to be obsolete. When my son is 27, I want him to be able to call me and tell me anything. It's not that I am afraid of my dad.. I just don't ****ing now him lol, I haven't talked to him in the past, he doesn't make an effort, why should I.
Truth be told, alot of what I am today, is nothing more than overcompensation for what I didn't get, what I wasn't growing up. it takes a pretty ****ed up child to want be willing to give up almost 4 years of his life, just to prove a point, the poin being that he is successful and that he is "somebody". it just so happened to pay off. For all the stuff I have, I'd kill for a dad that gave a ****, who didn't try to **** his son's women and who actually called to say hi every once in a while. And you have the nerve to tell me marriage is going to be obsolete
PS - yeah it's so bad I just got a call from my mom, i'm not even going to bother with a flight tonight, he won't make it in time for me to see him. they won't even operate on him, probably won't make it to tomorrow, yet my dad can't even call and pick up the phone.