My guy friends, who consist of 6 of us were all in the bar last night. One of my guy friends is a cheesy guy but all the girls love him. The rest of us are kind of beta-males. I just saw all the traits come alive with us, it kind of pissed me off. I am not a virgin, I have had relationships. What I did in those relationships is put up a front of being an *******, which I am not. It felt fake and that is why those relationships did not last long. When it did come to girls I liked, and wanted to show my real side to, I back out or got scared. People know me as a good guy, who is fun to be around and always listens when they are in trouble. I hide that from girls because when I was growing up, all the *******s got the girls while I listened to them. I am 23 and want a relationship that is real, not fake like the ones I have been in. There is this girl Meredith that I am kind of attracted to but she knows me as the shy kid (I have only been around her 4 times) I think if all of sudden become outgoing she will think it is fake. I also want to help all my friends because without that one friend around we struggle, even though sometimes we get the girls. I have learned to become so withdrawn because of my fear, girls think I am weird or an *******, I can feel it. This is my only fault in life, it has always been. I want to get Meredith or any future girl or at least go down with a good fight.
Thanks for reading...comments are welcome.
Thanks for reading...comments are welcome.