Dante420 said:
This girl means everything to me though. You really don't understand. She was like THE person who was there for me just about everyday for 2 years. She was my first girlfriend. She said that she is so sorry for having treated me like this and that she can never forgive herself and that it's all her fault.
I really want her back.
It's not like I can be like "Oh you just did all this and let our relationship go down the drain but lets get back together after you have shown me absolutely nothing to fix it"
So your identity was a duality.
Break that.
Ever seen Fight Club? Remember this scene - "
Self-Improvement"
"Self improvement is masturbation, self-destruction, now that's getting somewhere.."
Destroy that mindset of "I need to be with some one" or "She was the one" -
ITS BULLSH!T!!!! The longer you stay in your depression the longer and lasting the pain will be.
Find out who you are. By yourself - remember that the only person you can rely on in life is you. No one else.
You want to feel depressed and down and lonely and allllllllllll that other jive because you feel that part of you has been taken away. You feel that you're now incomplete.
Why? Because of a chick? For two years? How old are you? Do you plan to die soon?
OR are you afraid you won't be able to get another girlfriend?
Honestly, this isn't a place to cry about your girlfriend. You need to come to terms with the fact and REALITY that it is over. If you take her back, you're just another nutless tool who will be dissatisfied with your life.
Either way, all the best.
