Yeah , it's a really weird experience... like I intuitivley 'know' she is bad news and not a good person, yet there is still a part of me that thinks I didn't treat her right and she decided to 'get me back' for being too playerish early on.
anyway this is the long version for anyone who cares to read...
after 6 weeks we were together, we still hadnt had sex but she came off her period and came over to my house with yoghurts for me to eat off her pvssy... she goes to the bathroom then comes downstairs all upset and moody, nearly crying... i ask whats wrong and she says she'd 'come on' again... unbeknownst to me she would be on her period for 2.5 months! due to the hormone implant, aledgedly! if i ever brung it up she'd get all pouty as if i only wanted sex. even tho she was horny as fk aswell!
she did suck good d1ck, like proper porn style, and was wild - she liked being treated really roughly and being choked and skullfvcked hard.
she also liked being cuddled and made really cute noises when she was squeezed.. at first!
couple of warning signs happened early on... she calls me then texts to say she didnt mean to ring. i reply saying 'i should think not x' she then snaps saying weve only just started going out and although weve hardly seen each other im already pissing her off.
i dont reply... a few hours later shes desperatley texting me saying shes worried i havent replied and she was joking. later on the phone she says she isnt like 'that'.
days later were on the phone i compliment her and shes like 'i bet u say that to all the girls' i tell her not at all... but half way through talking my phone battery dies. when i plug in i have 2 texts saying 'yeah hang up slag!' 'hang up you slag!' with no kisses. she ALWAYS put kisses. she comes round and i bring it up... her face greys and her eyes look really menacingly at me and she virtually threatens to leave and break up with me then and there because i obviousley dont understand her like she thought, and shes 'not b1tchy like that'.
anyway...
She becomes moodier and snappier, the insults start creeping in and she's more difficult to meet up with.
she was always tryin to make me jealous, a few times pretty ridiculously - she said 'i cant come over tonight im off to a work party.. a colleague has a guy friend who 'realllly wants to meet me'.. im like 'ok' shes like 'but dont worry, id never cheat on you'.
i'd be on the phone with her and shed always be like 'one min... then shed reply to a text and say some guy keeps pestering her'
she constantly 'jokingly' insinuated she fancied my housemate.
one night we told each other the number of people wed slept with, hers was quite high and i think my face showed a degree of shock.. she nearly started crying, going all girly and saying i should just split up with her now if im going to end it. i re assured her but she texted later saying she cant help worrying she 'put me off'. come to think about it she worried about that on a few occasions.
all the effort with the texts stopped aswell but i decided to keep giving because i didn't want to play some tit for tat crap and spoil it.
it continued though.. being disrespectful, flakey with meet ups. when she did ever come round she'd often be in a foul mood and often snap at me and insult me saying im annoying etc. even though i'd done nothing wrong.
she didnt trust me at all, always thinking i was playerish. she wanted to go out dancing to a really loud obnoxious meat market of a pub/club (where i met her) i said lets go somewhere more chilled coz i wanna be able to communicate with her, since we barely saw each other. She took that as meaning i had something to hide, like i didnt want girls at the pub knowing about her, or i had girls there id been seeing.
used to pretend she didnt receive texts i sent and wait until late @ night and say 'no text? ;('.
I felt totally off balance with her, she was like a jekyl and hyde character. The times we were apart my mind was performing somersalts as to what she was playing at, but when we met up it's like i 'knew' her again, and i'd just forgotten who she was because my mind was playing tricks on me.
we were in bed and i asked her why she didnt seem to compliment me much anymore and she said 'well i wanted u to know i liked you, but ive got you now haven't i'
she came over on valentines day after work, in a flat mood, ate the food i made then we were lying in bed & she says were not doing anything because shes got to go walk the dog. she leaves after making no effort at all but 'apologises' by text later.
if i ever told her i couldnt be doing with all the bad behaviour and i didnt want to be in a relationship where there was no respect and i didnt want to invest all my time and not get anything back, that there was other things i could do with my time. shed get pouty and sound sad, saying yea like shagging other girls u mean', as if i was a player and thats what i wanted.
she kept flaking and being difficult so i told her to come over and sort stuff out, i put forward my side of things and she made it out like i was totally over reacting and i got her over there for nothing. she didnt take on board anything i said and basicly spun the whole thing round on me. i ended up saying id been speaking to a mate about our relationship and had conerns about it, that id also talked to a girl about the implant.. she got really upset and angry for talking to other people about her and threatened to break up with me, i said ok and then she changed her mind but put me on a major guilt trip about the whole thing, she looked so angry and upset it was kinda worrying. she claimed she 'really really really liked me.. too much' and was 'scared, but id really pissed her off'. she wouldnt stop acting like a hurt little girl & refused to let it go for days, and used it as an excuse for me to make all the effort.
the last straw was when she built up her 21'st bday to me for weeks then excluded me from it completely for the whole week, making excuses as to why she couldnt come round and not making an effort to meet up. i sent her a bday text in the AM and she didnt reply all day untill 11pm claiming her phone had 'died'. i told her to try get friday free to meet. she went NC on me over thu, fri, then texted out of the blue sat eve saying she left her phone at work. i ended it by text around that time saying theres no point continuing because were just spinning our wheels and we never see each other and we should have been all over each other at that point.
i truly thought shed either lost interest or was scared of being hurt and pulled back. either way she was being disrespectful & playing blatant games.
still, i was in turmoil that i may have done the wrong thing and just lost someone amazing (based on what she was like early on) by jumping to a wrong decision.
4 days later she re initates contact and we talk on the phone, i explain i only split up with her because i thought she was no longer interested because of the way she was behaving - avoiding meet ups and not putting any effort in in general. she told me i was totally wrong and she did like me still etc. but shed 'lost respect for me for breaking up with her by text' and she had also come off her period in the days we split up (nice coincidence!).
She came round the day after to sort it out, somehow she managed to frame it that i was the one in the wrong and i was explaining my reasons for being so mean and splitting up with her. i told her how much i liked her, that i even cried when we split up. She didn't beleive me at all, as if I wouldnt have cared enough to cry, but i was like 'serious, i cried a bit coz i was sad'. know what she said to that?... 'oh, i don't think i've ever made a guy cry before, oh well maybe once'. Like it was somekind of emotional trophy! (another time, i told her she was a flirt for accepting drinks off horny guys in a club, all she was interested in was whether or not it made me jealous).
Anyway I told we could just see each other casually if she wanted, no strings attached. she gave a flat no, saying she either wants nothing or a serious relationship. i said ok but on the condition we saw each other more, like a few times a week. she agreed saying she was available 5 nights a week. she stil left in a mood though and refused to kiss me.
then... the sh1t continued - flakes, no effort with texts, emotionally distant on the phone, there would often just be an eerie 'dead air' between us.
if i ever called her out on it she would say she wanted me and no one else and that she wanted a serious relationship.
i put up with it for another month, where i really tried to make it work.
everytime i tried to talk to her on the phone about the situation id just be told im blagging her head, or what is my problem, shed make out i was over reacting. or shed just agree to things and then totally do the opposite.
she used to flip things that bothered me about her and turn it back on me, ie. i told her i wanted a relationship with her aswell as my phone. a bit later she flaked on me so i went to the pub. when she found out i was in the pub she freaked out texting me saying she 'expected me to be tucked up in bed waiting her call and that i had to be IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PHONE AS WELL AS HER!
