LOl @ Zero
HB, like they said. You have an infantile need to have this girl in your life NO MATTER WHAT anyone says, how foolish you look, If you have to be her step stool, kiss her a$$, YOU JUST DONT GET IT.
You are in Denial, and thats helping you to cope with this painful breakup. I'll bet you goto bed fantasizing about the 2 of you together again dont you?
This my friend has left the boundries of DJ advice to help you get a girl..to the threshold of desperation, codependence and love addiction.
This girl is YOUR self esteem, the way you deem yourself, you will not love yourself unless she loves you.
These are major childhood issues you need to deal with. See a therapist, buy a self help book, this stuff is way over your head and I doubt you have the energy/will power to deal with this by yourself.
Good luck - Peace