It's been a ****ty summer.

[SharinganUser]

This summer I managed fvck up just about everything I've attempted. One night 2 months ago, I got mad and punched something and broke my hand, all because I blew a chance to show my parents that I could handle more responsibility at work. Since then I've gotten lazier and made more mistakes. I keep fvcking things up and even when something goes wrong that I have nothing to do with, they still get angry with me or take it out on me later. One of the things they do is interupt me to do something else, and then they get mad at me for not finishing the first thing I was doing.

I feel like I am getting lectured all the time and then my parents can't seem to figure out why I don't act like a good employee. Sometimes I am in a good mood and ready to get to work for them, but needless to say, that doesn't last more than a few hours once guilt trips and relentless lecturing starts. Honestly I have never been more disappointed in myself than any other time in my life.

A few days before I broke my hand, I had found out that I girl I had met in China had died in the earth quake. Then a week after that, my co-worker drowned on his way to work because he wasn't wearing a life jacket.

Honestly this summer has been a complete fvcking write off. The only thing that I have been successful at is being celibate for the summer, which was my choice, and in retrospect has been a complete fvcking mistake. Maybe some religious people can feel good about being celibate, but for me it only added to my stress and did unnecessary damage to my self image.

I am leaving to go traveling overseas in mid October, but this late in the game I really don't know how I can turn this summer around.

 

[Quiksilver]

Pick yourself up bro. It's all in the mind, and I've literally been there/done that.

The whole 19th year of my life was the biggest slice of fail in the world. On my 19th birthday I had dental surgery(wisdom teeth), the doctor managed to fracture my jaw and I was on Codeine(1 step below morpheine) for 3 weeks, unable to sleep longer than 3 hours at a time b/c of the pain.

All I was able to eat(more like swallow) for that period was raw eggs, ice cream, and some blended fruit(the combination actually makes a killer smoothie). Those 3 weeks fvcked me up psychologically and sort of numbed my mind.

Immediately after that I moved homes for the first time in my life, from a huge lakefront estate in a quiet town to the financial district of the largest city in Canada. The move was traumatic and I never really got settled in.

All my friends were off at university while I was paying the price of poor educational decisions of the previous year. I had to take some summer school and online courses. I got fat and lazy with the new urban lifestyle.

When I tried to get back in to the gym, my lack of conditioning led to a serious lower back sprain that had me sidelined from november 2007 through June 2008. I also bought a game console in november right after my injury to pass the time, and i became addicted to it. That sucked my life away and I got even fatter and lazier.

I finished highschool finally through online courses and applied to uni, in March 2008, and sold my Xbox only recently. I was accepted to a university 15,000km from my home, in Australia. Then on my 20th birthday, flew out here and began a new life. An entire year of b.s., depression, and sedentary living has led to the next 3 years of my life which will hopefully be the best years. I would not have decided to come to the far side of the planet if my life hadn't been a disaster for the past year.

So your summer of sh1t(how long has it been, 7, 8 weeks?) compared to my literally 52 weeks--to the day really--is nothing, and hopefully you see now that while your life may be a steamy pile of sh1t right now, you can still plan and prepare for the best years ahead of you. No one's life is perfect all the time, but hopefully I showed you that even in those low points, you can find opportunities to make the best of them.

All it requires you doing is sitting down and planning out exactly where you want to be, what you want to have, and detail HOW you want to get there.

A good analogy is, a ship captain sailing from one port to another. You set out and the seas are calm, going is easy and you can track a straight path to your destination... Suddenly a storm kicks up and the seas are rough, your boat is tossed about on the waves and at times you fear you will be pulled under by the treacherous waters, yet with a compass to guide you, you will never lose your way regardless of how tough the going gets.

You have to develop that compass in your life, so no matter how rough or challenging your life gets, you'll always be on course.

cheers

 

[DamHE]

that sucks just try to suck it up and start all over again