I don't know if I'm currently coming to a "climax" in life or what I'm coming to, but it seems like I'm either crossing over into a Higher Realm or I'm just on my way to destruction.
So I guess most of you know me, DJF, Pvssy-Eater, John, whatever the hell you wanna call me. Some of you like me, some of you think I'm the worst thing since Bush but I really could care-less.
All of my life I've had this internal determination for "God" but the more older I get the more stupid and unreal "God" appears.
My belief and "relationship" I should say with God was more personal, not "Christian scripture Church" based. But as I get older it all appears like just some crappy imagination.
I had the same fire for Santa Claus when I was younger, I had the same fire for Hulk Hogan (don't laugh) when I was younger.....it seems like I've just replaced the action figures and picked up a Bible. A new "Hero."
The problem with this is that "God" made me see my life as purposeful...without that same "belief" I begin to wonder like Creed said, "Just what is this life for?"
I'm just beginning Grad School, just receiving cashflow from the business, and just really making it to where I want to be in life. But "God" had nothing to do with that...I worked and achieved it.
I'm just confused. Plus, NOTHING in the Bible about God or NOTHING about the beliefs of God seem anything real or concrete nor do they make sense at ALL.
I'm just confused, one thing I do know......it feels much better to believe in an Easter Bunny then it doesn't, but the very act of believing in something that is not real makes you literally a psycho.
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So I guess most of you know me, DJF, Pvssy-Eater, John, whatever the hell you wanna call me. Some of you like me, some of you think I'm the worst thing since Bush but I really could care-less.
All of my life I've had this internal determination for "God" but the more older I get the more stupid and unreal "God" appears.
My belief and "relationship" I should say with God was more personal, not "Christian scripture Church" based. But as I get older it all appears like just some crappy imagination.
I had the same fire for Santa Claus when I was younger, I had the same fire for Hulk Hogan (don't laugh) when I was younger.....it seems like I've just replaced the action figures and picked up a Bible. A new "Hero."
The problem with this is that "God" made me see my life as purposeful...without that same "belief" I begin to wonder like Creed said, "Just what is this life for?"
I'm just beginning Grad School, just receiving cashflow from the business, and just really making it to where I want to be in life. But "God" had nothing to do with that...I worked and achieved it.
I'm just confused. Plus, NOTHING in the Bible about God or NOTHING about the beliefs of God seem anything real or concrete nor do they make sense at ALL.
I'm just confused, one thing I do know......it feels much better to believe in an Easter Bunny then it doesn't, but the very act of believing in something that is not real makes you literally a psycho.
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