Not a lot. A few dinners, maybe 5 movies. Less than $100 between many women. I invested millions worth emotionally. And by invested, I mean wasted.
I was very traditional and romantic - due to my proper, non-american upbringing. Had the whole fairytale love bull**** going on. But, it never got me anywhere, and I WAS very good looking, socially adept, had a nice car, solid personality, a backbone, and all that ****. Basically, the best of both worlds - like women SAY they want. All lies. They didnt want a hot good guy to marry, or whatever bull****. They just wanted ****, and actually got turned OFF by romantic, relationship / gentleman type ****. Gutter *****s, really. Their attraction shot up 600% once I finally had enough, lost interest, hated their guts, and treated them like garbage. Their attraction was also super high in the very beginning - when I wasnt very interested - only to plummet into the negatives when I *gasp*... wait for it... the mother of all evil... here it comes... get ready... showed interest back. OH, THE HORROR! Anything but that! SAVE ME JESUS!
Despite *****ing non-stop about *******s who used them for sex - thats EXACTLY what they responded to (and were themselves). They would actually, literally, seriously ***** about the same thing they went after. At the same time. Once they knew I was interested - it was game over. They would ***** about everyone who DIDNT want them, and treated those who did like ****. Pot and the ****ing kettle. They were addicted to the chase, had low self esteem, and ****ing **** **** **** ***** ***** I had the worst standards in the world.
This is why its so vital to pay attention to everything, and assume or believe nothing. Dont make things bigger than they are, or try changing anyone. And DONT sympathize with the damsel. Whatever they tell you is who they are, what they respond to, who they associate with, and what they feel they deserve. The whole truth is right in front of you. All that **** they reveal as theyre *****ing... Its all them.
But that **** can really **** up your views. Dont try saving troubled people, or getting caught up in their mess. Accept them just as they are RIGHT NOW - not how they used to be before they got "hurt" and betrayed (which, by the way, was all their fault for choosing *******s).
****ing ranting again ****.
**** my life.
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