Here is my story...
I just turned 30 this year. When I was young I was shy and always thought milestones like my 18th birthday, high graduation, college graduation, and the real world would change everything with the ladies but I feel I am still stuck in the same place I have always been.
When I was a kid, I was overweight and shy. Any girl who gave me the time of day I fell for and it always ended the same way...she liked someone else. That was until college when I met a girl who was for me and I believe was the one. I got ****y and treated her like dirt. In a weird way I felt if I got her, I could get any girl. She was that beautiful. I lost her and haven't had a connection like that since. I've read most books by mystery and Strauss, listened to Player Supreme, and listened to my guy friends. I have had sex but it seems like I am constantly still in the friendzone while people in my life have learned the ability to attract females. I am not a bad looking guy by no means. I am no Brad Pitt. I am 5'8 and have an Asian/Spanish look to me. Girls think I am cute.
Why I am here.... I went to a party the other night. I have been friends with these people since we all attended Graduated School together. I am in the business industry...boring job that I won't bore you with the details. Anyway, I have been off my game for a while and these people know me as the guy who always is the stag one. It bothers me. I KNOW I am capable of doing better. One of my coworkers brought this *****y girl, an 8, who was supposed to bring her friend. When asked why she didn't, she responded that the friend was busy and even if she was here, I couldn't handle her. The comment got really under my skin....I got really pissed off. That is when I decided to take the plunge and try this site out. A friend of a friend had raved about this site, especiallly the forum.
I live with my dad. It annoys me. I had an opportunity go out West after college but he wanted me to stay because a few years back we lost my mother. I felt bad and stayed. Even though I do love him, the decision has messed with me. I hate living at home and completely an ashamed of it. It effects my game with women. I don't mind being a good son but I want out...I want my own life. Everyone around me if moving on: some married and others just living out the dream. My 20s were a decade of bad choices, romantically and money wise, and I see that my decisions have bitten me in the ass. I blame myself. Is it too late? I was raised to be nice and I hate it. I hate when people call me nice. It irratates me and gets under my skin. I see it as a sign of weakness. It is all I know though. I need that edge.
As you can see..I need this site...I need people in the same boat as me because I can't talk to people. I don't like showing weakness to people I know. It is just how I am.
hopefully I haven't scared you guys off. hopefully you can all help me become a better man and the Don Juan I know I can become.
I just turned 30 this year. When I was young I was shy and always thought milestones like my 18th birthday, high graduation, college graduation, and the real world would change everything with the ladies but I feel I am still stuck in the same place I have always been.
When I was a kid, I was overweight and shy. Any girl who gave me the time of day I fell for and it always ended the same way...she liked someone else. That was until college when I met a girl who was for me and I believe was the one. I got ****y and treated her like dirt. In a weird way I felt if I got her, I could get any girl. She was that beautiful. I lost her and haven't had a connection like that since. I've read most books by mystery and Strauss, listened to Player Supreme, and listened to my guy friends. I have had sex but it seems like I am constantly still in the friendzone while people in my life have learned the ability to attract females. I am not a bad looking guy by no means. I am no Brad Pitt. I am 5'8 and have an Asian/Spanish look to me. Girls think I am cute.
Why I am here.... I went to a party the other night. I have been friends with these people since we all attended Graduated School together. I am in the business industry...boring job that I won't bore you with the details. Anyway, I have been off my game for a while and these people know me as the guy who always is the stag one. It bothers me. I KNOW I am capable of doing better. One of my coworkers brought this *****y girl, an 8, who was supposed to bring her friend. When asked why she didn't, she responded that the friend was busy and even if she was here, I couldn't handle her. The comment got really under my skin....I got really pissed off. That is when I decided to take the plunge and try this site out. A friend of a friend had raved about this site, especiallly the forum.
I live with my dad. It annoys me. I had an opportunity go out West after college but he wanted me to stay because a few years back we lost my mother. I felt bad and stayed. Even though I do love him, the decision has messed with me. I hate living at home and completely an ashamed of it. It effects my game with women. I don't mind being a good son but I want out...I want my own life. Everyone around me if moving on: some married and others just living out the dream. My 20s were a decade of bad choices, romantically and money wise, and I see that my decisions have bitten me in the ass. I blame myself. Is it too late? I was raised to be nice and I hate it. I hate when people call me nice. It irratates me and gets under my skin. I see it as a sign of weakness. It is all I know though. I need that edge.
As you can see..I need this site...I need people in the same boat as me because I can't talk to people. I don't like showing weakness to people I know. It is just how I am.
hopefully I haven't scared you guys off. hopefully you can all help me become a better man and the Don Juan I know I can become.
