Excellent! I'm not so good with strangers that I have no purpose of talking to, and thats a lot of people! Idk, i think I'm just paranoid of what people thinks of me... I donk know why. But today, I went to a small party. Heres what happened.
August 18, 2012:
RD invited me to his friends small party after planning to pointlessly go to the beach again. His friend, btw, is a 6girl. Shes a friend of mine too, but I only talk to her when I meet her. So we went and got there. Lets call her AL. So AL told both us that we're early and have to come later, but we chatted for a long time outside so she took us in her garage. We had good time after this.
There, some of her girlfriends came and join us. There was SS(6.5), MR(5), and JN(6.8). We're all asians btw. They were previous girls I've talked to before, but I was not interested. So AL served some chips and fruit and brought out the KARAOKE. I sang loud and proud. YES, I HAD THE CONFIDENCE TO SING KARAOKE, AND YES I CAN SING, sort of. I had sore throat after that haha. The others sang, but shyly. So I stood up and did some funny sexual dances for them haha like body roll or sumthin.
We then went at the backyard which was wide enough to play volleyball on. We quit volleyball and the girls, me, and RD sat around a roundtable. Suddenly, JN speaks:
JN: Hey, Let's talk. What do you guys think of love?
(Everybody talks at the same time and stops)
Me: I think that love is fake. It doesnt exist. Just different hormones giving out different feelings( I said whatever was in my head haha. i later on realize that love is crucial for the womens brains.)
JN: You guys listen.(JN goes on to tell a story of how she had a dreamed of a boyfriend who she became emotionally attached to and he forever changed her thoughts.)
(MR had to go home.)
Me: I think love is a part of sex.( I kept bringing up sexual points, but the girls just slap me or push me haha. We're all virgins, i'm 99% sure.)
JN: I don't want a boyfriend anymore. I dont care about kissing, sex, hugging. I just want love.
( Then talk.)
SS: Who are your crushes at school?
Me: Lets take turns.
SS goes first: RM
Me: RM?(Some dark asian dude like me haha)
SS: Yeah. It's just a crush. Nothing else.
RD: JN. (I was surprised because theyve been calling each other bestfriends long ago and i predicted that RD likes her or will like her if he doesnt stop playing around. RD has had attraction with SS, went out with AL( Found out shes 18 now wtf same grade as us), now likes JN, and also currently liking HP. These girls are all in a friend circle. HP I liked too, maybe 7.5, but kinda weird and nuts.)
JN: NO! We're only bestfriends!
Me, to RD, sarcastically: I told you *******!
(AL and SS goes quiet, but joins conversation.)
SS: Its obvious. I mean look how pretty JN is! and AL! I'm a bit jealous.
(talk, talk)
SS: I know both these guys at one point liked me. (She was right. Me and RD liked SS before. I liked her on freshman year because I always thought that I cant go for an 8 or higher because of low confidence and looks)
Me: Yeah! and who else do you like?
SS: BD.
Me: BD? He's a bossy overconfident guy!
SS: Its just a crush.
My turn for crushes: Well, guys have numerous girls in their heads usually, right RD?(nods) We have at least 5!
AL: Name only one.
RD talks for me: AR!
Me:Yes! AR. Shes too quiet though.
SS: AR?
Me: You know AR?
SS: We talked on seventh grade, and she was quiet.
Me: I know! Shes too quiet! It's so hard! I always fail on her. Theres also uhhhh... the banner girl and uhhhh... (I blanked out and couldnt remember! I have bad memory!)
(Girls laugh)
AL: Well, mine...(Se whispers to everybody other than ardy, who is her crush. aww, how childish for an 18 y.o. so she still likes him.)
We then went on to play truth or dare, which was lame because it wasnt serious. The dares were like kiss on cheeks, shy lap dance, etc. Then I started to feel attraction for SS, I dont know why. It was because she kept looking at me on the corner of my eyes and I kept kinoing her for practice. Holy crap. I realized that ever since I kinoed her that one beach day this summer, where she even asked me for dinner, but I was blanked out and ignored it. I often blank out when I'm having fun. I also become very outgoing. HOLY CRAP KINOING WORKS LIKE MAGICK!
Well, a good convo later and a ride from SS and I'm home. I figured that what I felt for SS was only sexual arousal. I was happy for today, having to hang with women and use what I've learned from here. t was very fun! Too bad I value higher rated women, whereas RD has lower expectations. Also during the convo, I remembered all the women I was most attracted to. There was AR, a 9.5, EXTREME quiet, my no.1 pick( and I was already rejected haha I think I friendzoned!). Theres LL, A HOLY FVCK perfect 10 and wo I have so much fun talking to and accepts my flirts, but FVKIN TAKEN by a cholo who I made friends with and made respect to on facebook for having such a beautiful girlfriend. Theres LN, an 8 *****y vietnamese who actually liked me but made a bad first impression, so I'm trying to make her like me again! And last, JC, a smart girl 9 who I've always noticed on honors classes but never actually talked to. I talked to her only twice and whenever me and JC went eyetoeye, her eyes seem to glimmer! Its either shes interested or shes really that attractive. I'm very excited to see them again at school. Beware the DJ jericg!