First year University - in residence me and a lady friend had been getting close before christmas. i've had been taking it slow, being challenging for about 7 weeks (i'd say) before xmas. we've been on 2 dates
what i know i'm doing wrong, and i'll definately try to fix for next time
1.i've been taking too long
2.i didn't call the date, 'dates'
3.i didn't close the deal by kissing her, on not one date, but 2 - retarded
in my defense - i've been considering it, just been:
too ***** (honestly)
and she's never had a 'boyfriend', etc.
4.i'm friends with most of the girls she lives with (presents positives and negatives)
before the break, we talked about, 'what was going on' (which she brought up... so i must have been doing something right) and she made it clear that she liked me, i (another mistake) told her i liked her, but i'm definately not a relationship type guy, which i mentioned (which i don't know how she took --- challenge or flaw).
she, went home, quite far, she's back now, and i'm frozen,
before the break, i was doing well, 3 C's - challenging, self controlled, confident. i was practising also, being a mystery.
we live on the same floor so we see eachother all the time. but since she's been back, i haven't talked to her really at all. and it feels like every passing day, its going to get stranger and stranger and things won't be as 'fun and light' anymore
i'm trying to practise the zen, by trying to adjust my love sick mind to one of impartiality, its just not working.
to be honest, and its hard to admit, i'm totally insecure about the entire situation - as you can see by this evident spaz. not cool.
also hard to say becuse of the investment i feel i've made:
does she need time? to get organized after the break?
should i cut my losses, and add a friend? or should i try to regain some composure, and try to get back in there?
troubled
-malinkus
what i know i'm doing wrong, and i'll definately try to fix for next time
1.i've been taking too long
2.i didn't call the date, 'dates'
3.i didn't close the deal by kissing her, on not one date, but 2 - retarded
in my defense - i've been considering it, just been:
too ***** (honestly)
and she's never had a 'boyfriend', etc.
4.i'm friends with most of the girls she lives with (presents positives and negatives)
before the break, we talked about, 'what was going on' (which she brought up... so i must have been doing something right) and she made it clear that she liked me, i (another mistake) told her i liked her, but i'm definately not a relationship type guy, which i mentioned (which i don't know how she took --- challenge or flaw).
she, went home, quite far, she's back now, and i'm frozen,
before the break, i was doing well, 3 C's - challenging, self controlled, confident. i was practising also, being a mystery.
we live on the same floor so we see eachother all the time. but since she's been back, i haven't talked to her really at all. and it feels like every passing day, its going to get stranger and stranger and things won't be as 'fun and light' anymore
i'm trying to practise the zen, by trying to adjust my love sick mind to one of impartiality, its just not working.
to be honest, and its hard to admit, i'm totally insecure about the entire situation - as you can see by this evident spaz. not cool.
also hard to say becuse of the investment i feel i've made:
does she need time? to get organized after the break?
should i cut my losses, and add a friend? or should i try to regain some composure, and try to get back in there?
troubled
-malinkus
