One on One
Master Don Juan
Man, I don't get this. It must have something to do with the fact that I used to have hardly any friends. Every time some little social "thing" happens, I usually end up either ecstatic or depressed. Here are some examples:
- Today I was talking to a girl on IM, the convo was short and it sucked. I'm thinking to myself this girl is no longer interested and I get all down and depressed. 30 minutes later she calls me up and invites me to a club next week...I guess she felt bad that our convo sucked too. So, now I'm very happy.
- When I call friends and suggest to go do something, I take it all so personally - if they can come, I am very happy, if they can't, I figure they dont' want to be my friend and get depressed.
It's like any little thing can either totally kill my mood or put me in a great mood. Girl flirts with me? Great mood! Same girl doesn't smile and come talk to me when I see her? Depressing.
I would describe my social life as tenuous, and I'm afraid it might fall apart soon, but maybe these fears aren't so realistic. I've actually had a social life for about 10 months now and it's only gotten stronger. I wish I could stop worrying about losing friends and being turned down by girls. I really wish I could, but I can't.
I know this is a desperate attitude and I wish it would go away, but I don't know how to make that happen.
- Today I was talking to a girl on IM, the convo was short and it sucked. I'm thinking to myself this girl is no longer interested and I get all down and depressed. 30 minutes later she calls me up and invites me to a club next week...I guess she felt bad that our convo sucked too. So, now I'm very happy.
- When I call friends and suggest to go do something, I take it all so personally - if they can come, I am very happy, if they can't, I figure they dont' want to be my friend and get depressed.
It's like any little thing can either totally kill my mood or put me in a great mood. Girl flirts with me? Great mood! Same girl doesn't smile and come talk to me when I see her? Depressing.
I would describe my social life as tenuous, and I'm afraid it might fall apart soon, but maybe these fears aren't so realistic. I've actually had a social life for about 10 months now and it's only gotten stronger. I wish I could stop worrying about losing friends and being turned down by girls. I really wish I could, but I can't.
I know this is a desperate attitude and I wish it would go away, but I don't know how to make that happen.