Let me open up by saying that I am not very experienced with women, but am extremely well liked by them. I have attracted women before (entirely missing the clues) and have a huge selection of female friends. I am a performer, a sports player, very bright, and have been told I am one of the funniest around. I am still very shy about approaching women, but am not shy about anything else -- extremely extroverted and willing to make myself the centre of attention in every other capacity.
Despite this, I still can't seem to accept that someone might like me (this stems from a terrible string of shotdowns back in my teenage years -- something I don't think I ever really got over).
The newest potential woman has got me teetering like a moron. We have become extremely close friends in a very short time. When we first met (about two months ago), she drunkenly said that she found me attractive but that she didn't want to hurt a potential friendship. I was cool with that... but then all the other things began to happen. She massaged me for two hours, we are constantly hugging for long periods of time when we leave each other at night, she stayed over one night and we slept together (no sex -- I mean purposely slept next to each other for no reason), I feel we constantly flirt, and she claims to have been literally brought to tears by a poem I wrote. She is also constantly telling me how good I smell and so forth, even talking about how I intrigue her and stuff. She doesn't talk about any other guys, but does mention that she doesn't have a boyfriend to others -- never to me directly. Other people have insinuated that we have romantic chemistry and she puts a hell of a lot more energy into things that other women haven't before (For example, always thanking me for our excursions, she remembers damn near everything I've ever said about myself, and, most importantly, she doesn't bombard me with her problems like other "let's be friends" women -- ultimately, I just feel different around her than I have other failures)
Okay, even I can see that there is SOMETHING there. Yet, whenever I think about moving to the next level, I can't do it. I can't convince myself that there's enough there. I sometimes think that the only way I'll ever get it is if a woman physically rapes me and hits me in the face and yells in my face that she likes me.
Can I get any support on this one? Gawd, I'm so irritated that I suck so much at this stuff. I think I've blown relationships at least 4 times before for the exact damn reasons, but I like her a lot and I very much want this to work because both she and I deserve it.
Thanks for your time.
Despite this, I still can't seem to accept that someone might like me (this stems from a terrible string of shotdowns back in my teenage years -- something I don't think I ever really got over).
The newest potential woman has got me teetering like a moron. We have become extremely close friends in a very short time. When we first met (about two months ago), she drunkenly said that she found me attractive but that she didn't want to hurt a potential friendship. I was cool with that... but then all the other things began to happen. She massaged me for two hours, we are constantly hugging for long periods of time when we leave each other at night, she stayed over one night and we slept together (no sex -- I mean purposely slept next to each other for no reason), I feel we constantly flirt, and she claims to have been literally brought to tears by a poem I wrote. She is also constantly telling me how good I smell and so forth, even talking about how I intrigue her and stuff. She doesn't talk about any other guys, but does mention that she doesn't have a boyfriend to others -- never to me directly. Other people have insinuated that we have romantic chemistry and she puts a hell of a lot more energy into things that other women haven't before (For example, always thanking me for our excursions, she remembers damn near everything I've ever said about myself, and, most importantly, she doesn't bombard me with her problems like other "let's be friends" women -- ultimately, I just feel different around her than I have other failures)
Okay, even I can see that there is SOMETHING there. Yet, whenever I think about moving to the next level, I can't do it. I can't convince myself that there's enough there. I sometimes think that the only way I'll ever get it is if a woman physically rapes me and hits me in the face and yells in my face that she likes me.
Can I get any support on this one? Gawd, I'm so irritated that I suck so much at this stuff. I think I've blown relationships at least 4 times before for the exact damn reasons, but I like her a lot and I very much want this to work because both she and I deserve it.
Thanks for your time.
