Welcome to my world bro!
A few weeks back, I went to my work Christmas party, abused a few people, smashed a glass, swore at them, told them Im quitting, and walked out!
Next day, I just brushed it off and laughed. Nobody cared.
Everybody understands when your mute, as long as you dont do it week in and week out! But every now and then, if you make a fool of yourself, nobody cares! And if they do, FUKC them! You live your life and enjoy doing what you do, as long as your not beating someone down, drink driving or something other really hurtful to someone, then who cares!
Your cousin probably didnt answer cause he was also scattered, paranoid and embarassed, as most people feel the day after a HUGE night on the turps!
You will soon realise after many more nights drinking, that when you wake up and feel paranoid the next day, its a WHOLE LOT BIGGER situation in your head, than it is to anyone else!
In a month, it will be a distant memory that you laugh about!
Just remember, if you dont kill someone or seriously injure someone, then who cares! Enjoy it and laugh about it! If someone is so uptight about something that small, then they are the one who is sheltered!
Enjoy your next moment of glory!
Oh and as for crying when your drunk, ha ha ha, who cares! I have done this multiple times as have most guys who have gone out and partied on numerous occassions. Even one of my best friends, who is a HUGE, professional athlete and who knocks guys out (not a good thing) nearly every single week, has cried numerous times when his on the turps.
The main thing is, dont do anything to really hurt someone (this little slap on the back incident is nothing) and the next day, walk with your head up, chest out, shoulders back, and dont let anyone talk down to you. IF they give you advice and you dont want it, just dont respond and dont look at them, just pretend your thinking of something else, they will soon stop talking! If someone gets angry, tell them to lighten up and that their too uptight! There are plenty of people like this out there, plenty who HATE when others get drunk, and they are all usually the real uptight people, who dont enjoy their lives themselves!
If you can enjoy your time not drinking, then dont, but if you have fun out on the turps, then drink! Simple as that! I know its cliche when you hear "life is not long, enjoy it", but it is the honest truth!