Well I live with relatives who aren't my birth parents.. I won't say the relationship for confidentiality I'm 19 years old and a few years ago I was heavy into drugs mostly ex and weed.. and per there request I quit but they still call me things like junkie, druggie and call me stupid and **** for brains and it hurts so much.. I've been trying to work on my confidence but how can I be confident when the only family I've ever known thinks ill never be ****. And I can see there disgust when they look at me and it hurts more than any rejection a female could give me. I mean I made a complete 360 I quit smoking weed and using drugs I started working though I don't make enough to just move or I would.. like someone please help me.. I'm lost I feel like a little ***** posting this but..