I’ve been a long-time lurker of this site and even after reading so many great inspirational/motivational posts, I still get in a mental rut.
Let me explain.
About 3 months ago, my ex broke up with me. It was absolutely debilitating. I mean, I have never experienced such a mental, emotional low in my life. This was a girl that I was (still AM) VERY attracted to, who I was planning on marrying and spending the rest of my life with. I’ll admit, the first year we were together (we were together for 2 and ½ years), I was a complete AFC. But the thing is I guess she was too. Leaving her notes on her car, buying her flowers, writing her poems, it made her fall madly in love with me, and me with her.
Flash forward another year and by that time, I “settled” for her in that I KNEW I wanted to spend my life with her. So, I stopped doing the sweet things that she loved. I figured, “hey, we’re planning on getting married soon. Everything’s fine. I have nothing to worry about.” Sure enough, we fought more. The thing is, the fighting never phased me-it lasted for a day or less, and the next thing you know it we were either at her house or mine making love.
That’s another thing. She was my first real girlfriend and I lost my virginity to her. Once we started getting intimate, my God, we were going at like every day. To me, she was everything I could want physically. She’s short (5ft), has a big set of boobs, a nice round butt and awesome thighs (I have a thing for thighs lol).
Whenever the weekend approaches, I get in this funk. Today’s Thursday, which used to be “our” day. She would come over and we would “watch” a movie which led into an hour long sex session.
It just hurts like a mother****er knowing that while we were still together, she dumped me and “branch swung” to another guy she had been talking to behind my back. Sure enough, after I found out, I went into extreme depression, had feelings of guilt, the “what ifs”, the “I should have said/done that more”, suicide… It was bad. I begged and cried for a week asking her to take me back. I am ashamed of even admitting that. It hurts like hell when a week after the break-up, she says, "You didn't treat me right. And I'm happy now."
I guess what I want to know is, has anyone gone through what I did, being a complete AFC to their first girlfriend (LTR) to becoming a “Don Juan” and actually being happier? I still get these feelings like, “Oh, the next girlfriend I have, I’ll treat her the way I did that won my ex’s heart in the first place…” And then I read post after post explaining the opposite, and I’m like, damn, I seriously have to change…
And also, how many of your cold approaches have turned into LTRs? I get psyched when I read about other people doing them, but then I read on and it seems like the girls they got were just another “plate” without potential for anything more…
Let me explain.
About 3 months ago, my ex broke up with me. It was absolutely debilitating. I mean, I have never experienced such a mental, emotional low in my life. This was a girl that I was (still AM) VERY attracted to, who I was planning on marrying and spending the rest of my life with. I’ll admit, the first year we were together (we were together for 2 and ½ years), I was a complete AFC. But the thing is I guess she was too. Leaving her notes on her car, buying her flowers, writing her poems, it made her fall madly in love with me, and me with her.
Flash forward another year and by that time, I “settled” for her in that I KNEW I wanted to spend my life with her. So, I stopped doing the sweet things that she loved. I figured, “hey, we’re planning on getting married soon. Everything’s fine. I have nothing to worry about.” Sure enough, we fought more. The thing is, the fighting never phased me-it lasted for a day or less, and the next thing you know it we were either at her house or mine making love.
That’s another thing. She was my first real girlfriend and I lost my virginity to her. Once we started getting intimate, my God, we were going at like every day. To me, she was everything I could want physically. She’s short (5ft), has a big set of boobs, a nice round butt and awesome thighs (I have a thing for thighs lol).
Whenever the weekend approaches, I get in this funk. Today’s Thursday, which used to be “our” day. She would come over and we would “watch” a movie which led into an hour long sex session.
It just hurts like a mother****er knowing that while we were still together, she dumped me and “branch swung” to another guy she had been talking to behind my back. Sure enough, after I found out, I went into extreme depression, had feelings of guilt, the “what ifs”, the “I should have said/done that more”, suicide… It was bad. I begged and cried for a week asking her to take me back. I am ashamed of even admitting that. It hurts like hell when a week after the break-up, she says, "You didn't treat me right. And I'm happy now."
I guess what I want to know is, has anyone gone through what I did, being a complete AFC to their first girlfriend (LTR) to becoming a “Don Juan” and actually being happier? I still get these feelings like, “Oh, the next girlfriend I have, I’ll treat her the way I did that won my ex’s heart in the first place…” And then I read post after post explaining the opposite, and I’m like, damn, I seriously have to change…
And also, how many of your cold approaches have turned into LTRs? I get psyched when I read about other people doing them, but then I read on and it seems like the girls they got were just another “plate” without potential for anything more…