I've just listed down my problems
1) I am a social coward. I need to improve my overall confidence. I've been frequently teased by some guys that I am a guy with no balls for I am a social coward and I will never get laid. TRUE!! But I just dislike the way they talk. They must somehow see how many HBS I can get to punish them back so they'll know I'm not that lame after all
2) I lack social skills. I am frequently being isolated and I am not popular. I've been told a few times that I am a nerd and this validates the fact I am unpopular.!
3) I only have few friends. I tried to expand my social circle but failed because some of my friends are selfish people. They refused to introduce new friends to me as friends are like money around our age. Trust me. Friends are like money to us. We won't give it away freely.
4) I am a guy with moral discipline in university. I rarely drink, and even more worse, I don't smoke at all until recently, hardly go pubbing or clubbing. DAMN! Is it normal for a student in university to do all this? I've been seeing a lot of students who are in tainted hair smoking cigarattes as if it's something cool to be done.
5) Since I've been rejected a few times, it really hurts and I just won't move on. I heard the best way to get even with girls who rejected you is to find an equally HBS and you can show them off in front of those b|tches who rejected you. Is this true?
6) Even my own family underestimate me. I was told that I couldn't get a gf because of reasons 1,2,3 and 5 and lots more. I need to stop them from doing this. It is driving me nuts!!!!!!
I just have a hard time understanding why other youths don't seem to have problems with their life and it looks like I am destined to suffer in life.! ARGH!!!!! Maybe I am over exaggerating while I am depressed.