( I am not a team player and I don't get along well with others).
I'm not either. I fell into my career by "taking anything I could get" cause there weren'st no jobs when I moved 1000 miles away from my home town in 2003. I realized that autonomy was a perk of this job and started to say hey, this is for me, so I'll get the Best job in this field fighting tooth n' nail dropping me to 150 lbs the lowest gangliest figure I've ever sported back in 2006 (basically no time to eat lunch Or dinner really). I'm now at almost my heaviest in my life at 194 6'2." I can't remember my point. I guess it is when I spent most of my late teens early 20s trying to "get along" in the White collar world in "teams" I was so poor and never really cracked $13/hr for very long 1990s/early 2000s. I couldn't/didn't want to play the back-biting/snipping politics of ALL offices you must work in. ALSO, I consider 97% of ALL Americans as mine enemy (sorry, it's the state of affairs in my mind of the past few decades - it was fine in the 70s up until I was 5 to 7 years old but I always had this sense that the people around me in school and all-time afterwards were "off" (and I'd went to a private "christian" school to boot) in being "friendly" or "familial" as my cousins and brothers and neighborhood friends and 1st school mates had been early on). It was like a SHIFT to turncoat or self-hating or fakery had begun early 1980s and beyond. TRUST eroded. I no longer really had any friends, you know Real felt laughter and warm until night outdoors grassy dirty-faced feelings of kindred kinship. I had "friends" sure everybody did and we'd go to clubs etc etc (they formed a band, I played too but not in a show live like they did), doin crazy sh!t at night, but we weren't like Warm Cousin familial (I've got ur back, cuz, type friends I remember).
So with basically EVERYBODY being pre-judged at my Enemy (in my mind up until present-day 2019) here in America, I can't at all be a "team player." Trust has been eliminated. I REALLY see lack of trust when I see people coming from other states to where I live. I see the unwillingness to TRUST me (when most people around me have a better sense of trust). It's as if they're shell-shocked or not accustomed to "Trust" so they're more suspicious of you having met you the first time. Natives here aren't that way, are happy, and can speak freely and friendly when upon first interacting. I still do not trust In The End most native people even around me in my town and towns around because I'm not so sure that they are still not INFECTED with the Turn-coat Religion of Political Correctness, ESPECIALLY Baby Boomers, then next Gen-Xers like myself, then it's funny but the Younger generation I will afford or throw my trust towards the most cause they seem more woke (I guess) and less caring about "I'm gonna GIT you!" in My area. Sure, if I were in New York or San Fran or whatever Big city, I'd have to watch out more for Millennials and gen-y gen-z as well, but they seem to be the most MEME-aware and reasonable as opposed to the out-of-it EVIL Baby boom gen (unfortunately that my parents are apart of).
If I had a sense of and a level of Trust the way Americans used to have a sense of (due to their being more "churchy" in the past) trust pre-1950s, then I'd be a "Team Player" I believe. I'd be ALL IN. I'd be a cooperator. I'd be more self-sacrificial, because I'd trust that I'd be rewarded for that self-sacrifice for the team. These days honor is out the window, so I'm gettin mine while the gettin's good.
If I feel that cousin familial feel, then I'll be a "team player," and it won't be/feel like work because of it, because of the trust. My own people today, though USE the Religion of Political Correctness to stab me in the back.
