I was pretty much a douche to her and she got mad at me and I deleted her number. I really thought this girl was going to be my gf. I've gotten to the point where I can't do anything, sleep, or even talk to other girls anymore. Getting on facebook just makes me feel ****** because we have like 8 photos together and it just makes me feel like ****. Also, when I see her name it makes me cringe. Every little thing reminds me of her now, and it just makes me feel like ****. I almost cried today and by the looks of it I will be balling my eyes out in 2 days. I went and hung out with friends, but was just depressed and in a ***** mood. I almost cried in front of them too. This is awful because I never cry and haven't cried since 6th grade. It's hard for me to meet new girls because I"m trapped in an empty house with no car. My town is only full of tweens too. I don't like to make threads like this, but I have no other hope. Can't even look at porn anymore. She also made me this gift that has her name and my name on it and it makes me feel worse.