Well, yesterday she was lamenting that she wouldn't get to see me until next Friday (during our normal routine in business), and I sprouted that she could drop on by Sunday (again, same time) and we'd do it again. She pauses and says, "Seems like I have something to do on Sunday, but I can't remember what it was" or the like she's searching her mind for what she forgot. I'm thinking "Watch what they DO, not what they SAY (forever Liars cause they're Weak, the lot of em)." She'd just showed me pictures of her hike on Wednesday with her 2 best girl friends since childhood, both successful (engineer, she admits that they're all so different from one another nerds while she's/was life in the fast lane). She showed me pictures of her best friend and her from several years ago and she was Cute! but now is destroyed by something (I suspect Meth or some other hard drug while traveling with musicians the past couple of years). Her interest in me is becoming clear ~ last resort or no other options, but she doesn't know (or maybe she does) that a Slew of guys would have her based on her Body alone. Her face is fvcked up with pits or acne scars. So how does that happen? with meth I'd say, and she knew of a meth lab caught a few years ago the owner of the building and his Son who ran it, so. She's never admitted it, but 2 n' 2, plus her rise in voice, humor, and speaking definitively about it or coming to life tips me off (interest). Last Sunday on our "date" she mentioned wanting a camero (because she'd recently got a free upgrade on a rental out of town). I'm like "I'm not a 'car guy.'" I have a problem with girls (last year too, it was a Land Rover) mentioning their favorite vehicle in my midst while out together. It's insulting and makes me feel like a Mark.
Anyway, she said it'd be a 'surprise' if she shows up tomorrow morning at my house. I still to this day haven't called her so she doesn't have my number (or she would have sent me pictures of her hiking trip). She went from cute as a button girl growing up to Trash (but still youthful body). This may be too much for me to help/handle. I mean, I ain't no psychologist, I can only lead the way (of why 'I'm' so centered). I told her if she shows up or not that's fine I'm going anyway to shoot, because this country's fvcked.