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Senior Don Juan
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Here is my life story. I've been living in a quiet suburban town in New York. I'm a white guy with no friends. Well.. not exactly, it's not that simple. Let me start from the beginning.
In gradeschool before cliches come in I through I was pretty well off. I had some freinds, we had a pretty big group and we hung out at lunch.. nothing much else, went to eachother's house only for birthdays and **** like that. We weren't the smartest kids in school but we were pretty smart.
In middle school some **** was beginning. Like the popular kids groups were starting to form, then the skaters, and blah blah blah. The group got smaller, people forgot eachother, same ****. I started looking out for my education so I could keep above a 3.5 gpa. I still had some of the same friends. Namely 3 really good ones.
The group I was in was pretty much what you would call the "rejects". Those people in highschool that are nerdy and ugly, and whatnot, who talk about video games and play Magic: The Gathering.
About my 3 good friends. We had our disagreements but we stayed pretty good friends throughout middle school and whatnot. We didn't really meet eachother that much after school, but that was alright because I didn't really care.
And then highschool happen, and I lost all 3 of my friends. Over summer while I was on vacation, one of my friends moved to Canada. The other friend, the SMART one, an asian, decided to join the "Asian group" as he likes to call it. They hang out, call eachother, go to eachothers houses like it's nothing, go to the movies, their group has girls, ect. Why wouldn't he ditch me? My 3rd friend managed to get a girlfriend somehow (to tell you the truth, alot of people make fun of him behind his back calling him ugly), so he spends most of his time with her. They have been going out for 2 years now and still haven't broken up.
Right now, I don't really have any friends.
I sit at a table of rejects. Even I want to call them rejects because most of the time I hate them. They are nerds that really bug me, and they hate me, but they are too much of pussies to tell me to go hang out somewhere else. As soon as I finish lunch I walk around the school or do my homework. Why do they bug me? Most of them talk about nerdy mmorpgs, Halo 2, how well they did on their tests, about how much homework they have to do today at lunch, boring **** like that. None of us have ever had a girlfriend, and most of them, like me have never even TOUCHED a girl in any romantic way. No holding hands, no hug, NOTHING. I hate it.
So I'm sitting here thinking about my life. I have no friends. One moved to canada. The other hangs out with his girlfriend. And the other friend DITCHED me (I don't blame him, but he still jokes about it, and doesn't realize it hurts me feeling when he's like "LOL dude, I ditched you guys because you don't have any girls in your group) to hang out with Asians, and he's having a really good time.
For example, see my schedule: Go to school, come home, do homework, play on the PC/go to LWS. And weekends are usually do homework and eat, go on PC.
His schedule is hanging out with his friends after school, going to a CAFE or going to someone's house, or playing tennis. Doing homework, then talking to them on the phone. On the weekends they usually see a movie or go to someone's house to play HALO 2.
I know what you are thinking, "This guy sits with people who he hates and people who hate him, his friends ditched him, he's never had a girlfriend, he's 16, HE SHOULD JOIN A CLUB OR SPORT TO GET NEW FRIENDS!"
I've done it. Freshman year I knew how I had no social/love life. Sophmore year I told myself "This year it's going to be different".
I looked at the sports befores school started: Tennis, no I can't join that because my Asian friend and all of his Asian Group play that. I couldn't stand being there.
Football: I tried out, found out how horrible I was at that, so next sport.
Wrestling: Yeah! Finally a sport I like. I joined, and I made it into JV beating 4 other guys. So I'm doing that. Sport check, next clubs.
Clubs are something to do at Lunch. Something to do so I don't have to deal with the losers. I join a bunch of clubs.
So, now what? I get with people with similar interests, so maybe magic happens and I become their friend? Wrong.
I've yet to make ONE friend. People who act pretty cool to me at the clubs or wrestling I looked for at lunch and tried to talk to them, but they look at me, and I know that they are thinking "What the **** are you doing here?". I tried to be more agressive too, like saying "Do you want to hang out at blah blah blah" but they always say "No.. I'm busy". And I know they are lying because they say it in a tone that almost resembles "eeew".
So what do I do now? I never had a girlfriend, I have no friends, what the **** kind of loser am I? Do I even deserve to live?
sorry guys for the Emo rant there, but i justed had to let it out since im feeling very depressed
In gradeschool before cliches come in I through I was pretty well off. I had some freinds, we had a pretty big group and we hung out at lunch.. nothing much else, went to eachother's house only for birthdays and **** like that. We weren't the smartest kids in school but we were pretty smart.
In middle school some **** was beginning. Like the popular kids groups were starting to form, then the skaters, and blah blah blah. The group got smaller, people forgot eachother, same ****. I started looking out for my education so I could keep above a 3.5 gpa. I still had some of the same friends. Namely 3 really good ones.
The group I was in was pretty much what you would call the "rejects". Those people in highschool that are nerdy and ugly, and whatnot, who talk about video games and play Magic: The Gathering.
About my 3 good friends. We had our disagreements but we stayed pretty good friends throughout middle school and whatnot. We didn't really meet eachother that much after school, but that was alright because I didn't really care.
And then highschool happen, and I lost all 3 of my friends. Over summer while I was on vacation, one of my friends moved to Canada. The other friend, the SMART one, an asian, decided to join the "Asian group" as he likes to call it. They hang out, call eachother, go to eachothers houses like it's nothing, go to the movies, their group has girls, ect. Why wouldn't he ditch me? My 3rd friend managed to get a girlfriend somehow (to tell you the truth, alot of people make fun of him behind his back calling him ugly), so he spends most of his time with her. They have been going out for 2 years now and still haven't broken up.
Right now, I don't really have any friends.
I sit at a table of rejects. Even I want to call them rejects because most of the time I hate them. They are nerds that really bug me, and they hate me, but they are too much of pussies to tell me to go hang out somewhere else. As soon as I finish lunch I walk around the school or do my homework. Why do they bug me? Most of them talk about nerdy mmorpgs, Halo 2, how well they did on their tests, about how much homework they have to do today at lunch, boring **** like that. None of us have ever had a girlfriend, and most of them, like me have never even TOUCHED a girl in any romantic way. No holding hands, no hug, NOTHING. I hate it.
So I'm sitting here thinking about my life. I have no friends. One moved to canada. The other hangs out with his girlfriend. And the other friend DITCHED me (I don't blame him, but he still jokes about it, and doesn't realize it hurts me feeling when he's like "LOL dude, I ditched you guys because you don't have any girls in your group) to hang out with Asians, and he's having a really good time.
For example, see my schedule: Go to school, come home, do homework, play on the PC/go to LWS. And weekends are usually do homework and eat, go on PC.
His schedule is hanging out with his friends after school, going to a CAFE or going to someone's house, or playing tennis. Doing homework, then talking to them on the phone. On the weekends they usually see a movie or go to someone's house to play HALO 2.
I know what you are thinking, "This guy sits with people who he hates and people who hate him, his friends ditched him, he's never had a girlfriend, he's 16, HE SHOULD JOIN A CLUB OR SPORT TO GET NEW FRIENDS!"
I've done it. Freshman year I knew how I had no social/love life. Sophmore year I told myself "This year it's going to be different".
I looked at the sports befores school started: Tennis, no I can't join that because my Asian friend and all of his Asian Group play that. I couldn't stand being there.
Football: I tried out, found out how horrible I was at that, so next sport.
Wrestling: Yeah! Finally a sport I like. I joined, and I made it into JV beating 4 other guys. So I'm doing that. Sport check, next clubs.
Clubs are something to do at Lunch. Something to do so I don't have to deal with the losers. I join a bunch of clubs.
So, now what? I get with people with similar interests, so maybe magic happens and I become their friend? Wrong.
I've yet to make ONE friend. People who act pretty cool to me at the clubs or wrestling I looked for at lunch and tried to talk to them, but they look at me, and I know that they are thinking "What the **** are you doing here?". I tried to be more agressive too, like saying "Do you want to hang out at blah blah blah" but they always say "No.. I'm busy". And I know they are lying because they say it in a tone that almost resembles "eeew".
So what do I do now? I never had a girlfriend, I have no friends, what the **** kind of loser am I? Do I even deserve to live?
sorry guys for the Emo rant there, but i justed had to let it out since im feeling very depressed
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