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Master Don Juan
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No matter how much my ego tries to say otherwise, I am not the don juan I thought I was.
A couple days back, my gf and I had a blast of a time on a date. It rocked, and we parted on a happy note. Today, however, her and this guy who is really into her (he told me) went and did exactly the same things we did that time. They walked back from school with me, and she told me in detail how this guy hit on her. I asked whether he was hot, and at first she said she was not at liberty to say so, but then confessed he was 'kinda cute'. Basically, he was a head-turner.
That kinda got me, no matter how much I tried to tell myself it was just a **** test. Of course, I showed nothing, still acted as everything was normal (I know I was convincing). Then I went home, and they went off on the exact kind of date we had a while ago.
I know she isn't cheating on me, and if she does, I ll next her, even though we've gone for 9 months that included a couple of really messy fights. But hormones and logic don't mix, especially if she has little of the latter. She might do something and later regret it.
I know I am overanalysing, and can't believe the events today got to me as much as they did. I thought I had my sh1t together, but in reality I am more insecure than I like everyone to think.
So what do you guys think? I am not looking for advice on my girl. No need to analyse it even further. But I think many go through a stage where they realize they are just 'sheep in wolf's skin', acting the act, while inside they are a turmoil of mixed feelings and emotions. So what I'm looking for is people who have gone through something similar, and how they didn't let it stop the self-improvement. I learned alot in the past year, but I guess I know far from all.
Thank you.
A couple days back, my gf and I had a blast of a time on a date. It rocked, and we parted on a happy note. Today, however, her and this guy who is really into her (he told me) went and did exactly the same things we did that time. They walked back from school with me, and she told me in detail how this guy hit on her. I asked whether he was hot, and at first she said she was not at liberty to say so, but then confessed he was 'kinda cute'. Basically, he was a head-turner.
That kinda got me, no matter how much I tried to tell myself it was just a **** test. Of course, I showed nothing, still acted as everything was normal (I know I was convincing). Then I went home, and they went off on the exact kind of date we had a while ago.
I know she isn't cheating on me, and if she does, I ll next her, even though we've gone for 9 months that included a couple of really messy fights. But hormones and logic don't mix, especially if she has little of the latter. She might do something and later regret it.
I know I am overanalysing, and can't believe the events today got to me as much as they did. I thought I had my sh1t together, but in reality I am more insecure than I like everyone to think.
So what do you guys think? I am not looking for advice on my girl. No need to analyse it even further. But I think many go through a stage where they realize they are just 'sheep in wolf's skin', acting the act, while inside they are a turmoil of mixed feelings and emotions. So what I'm looking for is people who have gone through something similar, and how they didn't let it stop the self-improvement. I learned alot in the past year, but I guess I know far from all.
Thank you.
