yes.I said it before. I do have a job. I enjoy it,but it's been more of a focuse for me the past few years. As opposed to things like education,which has been on and off,self respect,esteem,confidence,etc. I would like to be on my own, but certain things seemingly permit that. But this sense of lack of that,or things having passed by,overtook when I was younger. I know you're not a therapist,but I just want to make things clear. It begins and ends with confidence,or is it more? this is something I need to do on my own,but it feels I have been waiting for things to change for me in so many ways,or it's the way I look at the world and how things seem set up against me somehow. Yeah,there's been a feeling of something missing,an emptiness. As Igetit said,the feeling of not feeling like a man. But,I would want to avoid this constant compensation,you know where you constantly do things to try and prove you're a man,cause to me,that's how people get tricked or used,and I wrong in assessing that?
