I was seeing what I thought was a 10, in reality she may have been an 8.5 in her younger days, but was prob more like a 7.5 these days.
Still one of the prettier ones.
Anyway - read 16 commandments poon by Roissy. And at all costs IGNORE HER BEAUTY. Ignore that beauty or you will end up being her b!tch boy, you will become submissive, you will fret (like you already are) if she doesnt text you and all the other signs of ONEITIS.
THis is all easier said than done of course. I did all the beta oneitis things last year with the particular chick I mentioned earlier.
Just remember she sits on the sh!tter just like you, f@rts, burps, scratches her a$$, she is just a person, albeit one you like to be fvcking.