I met a hot girl while traveling abroad a couple of months ago. We slept together 15-20 times.
Anyway, given that this isn't even an official relationship, why do I keep having jealous pangs and urges to know what she's getting up to?
Because she is hot. If she was overweight or in her 40s or a single mother, you wouldn't care.
She says she's waiting for me but I'm not naive enough to believe that a promiscuous person by nature would go two months without sex. So given the obvious fact she's slept with at least one person over the last few weeks (perhaps a local FB in her location), what's up with my weird obsessiveness over what she's doing?
Because she is hot. If she was overweight or in her 40s or a single mother, you wouldn't care.
I suspect this stems from my lack of an abundance mindset.
Nope. It's because she is hot. If she was overweight or in her 40s or a single mother, you wouldn't care.
It doesn't even feel fair of me to get jealous over what she's up to seeing as I didn't ask her to be in a relationship.
It's not *her* you are in love with, it's *connection* and *sex* you are missing. Combine that with the fact that she is hot, it's a recipe for jealousy.
You are still in your early 30s so that's still a sensitive age for sex and babies and relationships as everyone around you is settling down, getting pregnant. Once you get older it will go away.