Hey guys,
I want to ask you guys how you deal with the times you might get bored or feel lonely.
I've looked around at my life recently and I have limited social interaction with my peers and that scares me.
The thought of the weekends with just myself for company scares me, I don't like being alone I've realised.
I don't believe I place my self-worth based around people's interactions with me, I merely like company and the interaction and the learning of a person that comes with it.
I've tried to keep busy, I now play squash with a friend on a friday afternoon whilst producing for a local radio show and uni keeps me very busy either side of this.
I read alot of books, I'm looking to take up martial arts on a sunday and rock climbing on a wednesday, fitted around gym sessions, and I want to perhaps find a way of continuing to play piano which is something that I've neglect since starting uni.
The evenings and weekends are a killer for me, I get bored easily and with boredom comes the inevitable turning of thoughts within my mind and I ask myself why am I alone currently? Why am I not seeing other people, doing other things etc? What else could I be doing with this time I'm wasting? How should I be living my life better?
I appreciate you can't be doing something all the time or interacting 24/7 and that perhaps I'm being a bit harsh on myself for thinking I should but I can't quite help think I'm missing out somehow.
See, at the beginning of last year I almost died for reasons I won't go into here and I think ever since then I'm always wanting to be living my life, to be doing something.
I feel I'm much more aware of the time I have then perhaps my peers and put pressure upon myself to experience more because of it, and yet because the old me didn't put the effort in when it counted I find myself lacking in the areas I want to explore upon.
I really don't know what to do with myself guys, I possibly feel a little down right now. I'd call my folks to talk to them but I don't wanna wake them up or worry them so you're my next stop guys.
~Dan
I want to ask you guys how you deal with the times you might get bored or feel lonely.
I've looked around at my life recently and I have limited social interaction with my peers and that scares me.
The thought of the weekends with just myself for company scares me, I don't like being alone I've realised.
I don't believe I place my self-worth based around people's interactions with me, I merely like company and the interaction and the learning of a person that comes with it.
I've tried to keep busy, I now play squash with a friend on a friday afternoon whilst producing for a local radio show and uni keeps me very busy either side of this.
I read alot of books, I'm looking to take up martial arts on a sunday and rock climbing on a wednesday, fitted around gym sessions, and I want to perhaps find a way of continuing to play piano which is something that I've neglect since starting uni.
The evenings and weekends are a killer for me, I get bored easily and with boredom comes the inevitable turning of thoughts within my mind and I ask myself why am I alone currently? Why am I not seeing other people, doing other things etc? What else could I be doing with this time I'm wasting? How should I be living my life better?
I appreciate you can't be doing something all the time or interacting 24/7 and that perhaps I'm being a bit harsh on myself for thinking I should but I can't quite help think I'm missing out somehow.
See, at the beginning of last year I almost died for reasons I won't go into here and I think ever since then I'm always wanting to be living my life, to be doing something.
I feel I'm much more aware of the time I have then perhaps my peers and put pressure upon myself to experience more because of it, and yet because the old me didn't put the effort in when it counted I find myself lacking in the areas I want to explore upon.
I really don't know what to do with myself guys, I possibly feel a little down right now. I'd call my folks to talk to them but I don't wanna wake them up or worry them so you're my next stop guys.
~Dan
