I've been in kind of a dry spell lately since I've been focusing on studies and training and getting a little too little sleep and food. The result have been that I have been feeling beta and passive.
Five days ago I decided to stop masturbating and I will go entire may without doing it. Now I wonder if I should ever start again because the positive effects are mind boggling.
Among the things I've experienced:
- People give me a lot more attention and listen to what I say. They let me be the leader of the group, kind of comes with the territory of having some muscles as well but not as much as now.
- I seem to light up the room a lot more, people look at me (both men and women) when I walk past them.
- I do not procrastinate (much) when I need to do something.
- Confidence is way better I am way more social as well.
- Women attention is through the roof. Usually I get eyed but lately I have been ignoring it. Now I flirt with women who walks past me and stuff.
- I have a lot more energy than before and I seem to require less sleep. While I sleep I get the wierdest dreams. Lectures are flying past and I feel more invested in them than before. Usually i got tired in calculus classes because it was boring and now it is pretty interesting.
- It feels like my crotch/lower abdomen is going to explode, when I see women I **** them inside my head. I imagine the female studies in my courses moaning with my **** inside them. I want to **** them so much, pull their hair hear them scream my name... Pull their text books from their arms, push them onto a table and **** their brains out.
- I generally feel in a better mood, not as passive as usual. When I biked to the school I took in the sweet air, admired the nature and the splendor of the world. Sounds gay but it felt good.
- I feel a lot more manly than before and I no longer doubt my core beliefs about men should be men and women should be women which is the opposite of what is accepted in my country; Men should be feminised pussies and pussies should be butches.
- I dont back down from conflicts, this is a major thing in my country where everyone is pussies. I didn't back down much earlier either but now I don't even have to think about making a stand.
Holy ****, this is just awesome. It's been pretty grueling though since I used to masturbate quite a bit and day 1-2 were ok, 3-4 was the worst experience I've had, today it feels a lot better.