@biggoal, in observing your posting here, it seems to me that you have set your sites impossibly high in terms of the kind of woman you want. You are looking for the cream of the crop in women (I don't think this particular girl is so great, but I'm speaking generally here), but you haven't yet become a cream of the crop kind of man.
Your reach far exceeds your grasp. You can improve as the next few years go by, but in the meantime you need practice with more plain women. Your fantasies seem to see you with your version of a "perfect" woman, and because of this, you are excluding valuable practice and fun with women who just may be more authentic.
You remind me of a pre-teen wanting to hop into a Lamborghini. I advise you to re-evaluate your current state of development and adjust your expectations accordingly.
When was the last time you spent a nice Saturday with a woman, just enjoying your time together without worrying about whether she likes you or not? My guess is seldom if ever. I know that the idea of lowering your standards for now seems anathema to you, but one of the biggest lessons I learned in life was to embrace imperfection.
It seems to me that if you continue your current trajectory, you will grow older and older with no real experience and with bitter regret.
There are lots of fun girls out there who you can spend time with. You don't have to marry them. Just spend time with them and hone your skills. As you develop more confidence, your skills and attractiveness will increase and you will be rewarded with higher-level women.
None of this is meant in a mean-spirited way. The advantage of a forum like this is that others can see things that we ourselves are blind to. You're at a certain point of development, but craving upper-echelon women. You have to earn that by starting where you are and working your way up. I myself used to be completely invisible to these women, but as I developed myself (by taking what is taught here to heart), I became visible and attractive to them. I worked myself up from a non-entity (from their perspective) to conveying an aura of attractiveness that draws them to me.
However, I was realistic and at first I didn't consider it beneath me to date less attractive (not ugly, just more plain) women. Those were my years of practice that helped me grow into who I am today. A baby must crawl before it walks, and it must toddle around unsteadily before it runs.
You are always speculating how it is that this or that plain-looking guy attracts a fairly attractive woman. It's a combination of everything, the aura he projects to her. To her, he is powerful (women's ultimate desire is a man who projects power). I don't get the feeling that you project power to upper-tier women. However, you might be able to with a more "girl-next-door" type.
I know you'll discard this like water off a duck's back, but at least I'm planting a seed that may someday start to resonate with you.
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