Redempti0n
Don Juan
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Hi guys.
First off I wanna say how amazed I am after reading through the bible. I've been doing / using so much of that sh!t without even knowing it , and now it makes so much sense to me it's amazing. My mind is simply blown.
But anyway,I'm a 20 yo college student that just ended his almost 3 year LTR at the beginning of this year with an awesome girl. Moved to college half a country away and in about 1 year of long distance **** , things started to change. Time spent with her when we could visit each-other was amazing, the rest was just torture.
Also she was my first "love" and sexual partner , and I hers.
We eventually decided to end it (and when I say we I mean her. She initiated the brake-up and I agreed with it). It made sense. We're both young and torturing ourselves with this **** distance is just wrong. + the LD thing couldn't change for another few years due to school and all that. Whatever,it's hard to explain so I hope you guys get the point.
Either way we decided to not talk for a few months. We did so only very rarely. Maybe a few back and forths / month. Most were initiated by her.
However,a few days ago we met up since I was in town and had a great time. She admitted to still having feelings for me , and I did the same.We also both agreed that although we miss each-other , neither of us misses the relationship. Well,she said she did , but I don't. I pointed out that I can't possibly put up with the LD again. She replied "I know , we'll raincheck on this next year , when I'll be moving to your city as well". She's planning to follow up her education here too.
It's just an awesome feeling to be able to openly admit our feelings to each other while not having to do with any awkwardness or anything , since we both know it's a no-go due to the LD thing. It's just...liberating. Really awesome feeling.
Ok so enough about that , on to my problem:
Back home I have an amazing social life. I have the best friends in the world. And I'm not even overselling this. But there's a huge downside to that. Because I love these motherfvckers so much , it's close to impossible to find any close friends here. Out of all the social groups I've been in and things I've done in my time spent at college , it just doesn't get nearly as awesome. I'd say that the best time I had here isn't even as good as the worst time I had at home. Something like that.
I envy my ex for still being there .
Also my major has to do with a lot of math , informatics , exact science stuff , and so , the guys are nerdy and boring and the girls are pretty scarce. The hot ones,at least. That might have something to do with my displeasure.
As far as my self image , I think of myself as good looking. My facial aesthetics aren't bad at all while my body is pretty solid since I actively make that iron my biatch 6 days / week.
I got a great sense of humor , am confident (some say too confident as they call me arrogant at times) , and I keep a cool wardrobe although I'm poor as fvck as a student. But you know,I do what I can.
So yeah...my social life seems to be bleeding pretty hard and I consider that to be the core of my lack of happiness. I'm thinking about learning cold-approach (that could prove a fun challenge) and use that to try and fix my problem. + ridding myself of social anxieties would be amazing.
I'm not really that good at meeting new people and I'd really love to be.
Sh1t , this was a way longer post than I intended. Hope someone will bother reading it at least. If you do read it , feel free to give me pointers , throw a tip my way , or simply lay a 'phuck you' on my ass. Whatever you feel like , I'm all ears.
First off I wanna say how amazed I am after reading through the bible. I've been doing / using so much of that sh!t without even knowing it , and now it makes so much sense to me it's amazing. My mind is simply blown.
But anyway,I'm a 20 yo college student that just ended his almost 3 year LTR at the beginning of this year with an awesome girl. Moved to college half a country away and in about 1 year of long distance **** , things started to change. Time spent with her when we could visit each-other was amazing, the rest was just torture.
Also she was my first "love" and sexual partner , and I hers.
We eventually decided to end it (and when I say we I mean her. She initiated the brake-up and I agreed with it). It made sense. We're both young and torturing ourselves with this **** distance is just wrong. + the LD thing couldn't change for another few years due to school and all that. Whatever,it's hard to explain so I hope you guys get the point.
Either way we decided to not talk for a few months. We did so only very rarely. Maybe a few back and forths / month. Most were initiated by her.
However,a few days ago we met up since I was in town and had a great time. She admitted to still having feelings for me , and I did the same.We also both agreed that although we miss each-other , neither of us misses the relationship. Well,she said she did , but I don't. I pointed out that I can't possibly put up with the LD again. She replied "I know , we'll raincheck on this next year , when I'll be moving to your city as well". She's planning to follow up her education here too.
It's just an awesome feeling to be able to openly admit our feelings to each other while not having to do with any awkwardness or anything , since we both know it's a no-go due to the LD thing. It's just...liberating. Really awesome feeling.
Ok so enough about that , on to my problem:
Back home I have an amazing social life. I have the best friends in the world. And I'm not even overselling this. But there's a huge downside to that. Because I love these motherfvckers so much , it's close to impossible to find any close friends here. Out of all the social groups I've been in and things I've done in my time spent at college , it just doesn't get nearly as awesome. I'd say that the best time I had here isn't even as good as the worst time I had at home. Something like that.
I envy my ex for still being there .
Also my major has to do with a lot of math , informatics , exact science stuff , and so , the guys are nerdy and boring and the girls are pretty scarce. The hot ones,at least. That might have something to do with my displeasure.
As far as my self image , I think of myself as good looking. My facial aesthetics aren't bad at all while my body is pretty solid since I actively make that iron my biatch 6 days / week.
I got a great sense of humor , am confident (some say too confident as they call me arrogant at times) , and I keep a cool wardrobe although I'm poor as fvck as a student. But you know,I do what I can.
So yeah...my social life seems to be bleeding pretty hard and I consider that to be the core of my lack of happiness. I'm thinking about learning cold-approach (that could prove a fun challenge) and use that to try and fix my problem. + ridding myself of social anxieties would be amazing.
I'm not really that good at meeting new people and I'd really love to be.
Sh1t , this was a way longer post than I intended. Hope someone will bother reading it at least. If you do read it , feel free to give me pointers , throw a tip my way , or simply lay a 'phuck you' on my ass. Whatever you feel like , I'm all ears.