moneyisking
Master Don Juan
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I don't intend this thread to be New Age crap, but after I got heart-broke bad first time in my life (never took chicks seriously before), I came to think a lot about happiness, my life, spirituality and such. Well, about spirituality, I will just say God helps those who help themselves.
Look men, we all know that woman will not bring true happiness since happiness is a temporary thing; that's how life is, just a sequence of joy, sadness, joy, sadness. And if things go real fvcked up for us, we can become depressed, but we also get out of it too (not counting suicide). But your happiness and my happiness is different. I know some awkward looking guys or girls who have boyfriend or girlfriend, and in my eyes, they would look weird and unhappy, but they would be happy in who they are.
I tried to become "happy" and cheerful, all bubbly because I was tired of being constantly depressed over 2 yrs. But more I try to become that "happy", the more I felt unnatural and not-myself; and I know some bubbly, happy, cheerful people who are really happy, but that's because their "happy" is what makes them happy, not me. You know what I am saying? They are happy as bubbly, care-free people, but that does not make ME happy because I am different. So what makes YOU "happy"? Looking at different perspective, some can be happy by being able to seduce lot of girls, and some can be happy by finding that one chick that he can really love.
Below here is little personal, so if you don't want to read, feel free not to.
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I am trying to find who I am and what kind of state and mind makes ME happy. Be very frank with you, I was raised with very low self-esteem, constantly compared by a super-brother who was not only a chick magnet, but he just had something that changed air around him (we all know at least one guy like that). I remember crying a lot as a little kid because it hurt so much. I saw him getting all the girls and thought "hey maybe if I learn how to attract girls, I might be happy like him and feel valuable". Not only did I fail to learn attraction, I became depressed, fighting life to be happy and dragging along day by day. Couple days ago, I met one girl that I can honestly say I really like; she liked me too. But for no reason at all, she decided I was not for her and cut me off in next few hours. From that on, I have been thinking a lot. I thought maybe God cursed me, or I was just not destined to be happy, or that I am just unlucky as fvck. Then I tried to fight this depression head on by trying to be happy, but I explained above, I need to find who I am to know what makes me happy. Fellows... can I really become "happy" and be a kind of a guy that can get a girl that I really like? (vague question b/c your happiness is different from mine. Let's define happiness here as "__________________________").
Look men, we all know that woman will not bring true happiness since happiness is a temporary thing; that's how life is, just a sequence of joy, sadness, joy, sadness. And if things go real fvcked up for us, we can become depressed, but we also get out of it too (not counting suicide). But your happiness and my happiness is different. I know some awkward looking guys or girls who have boyfriend or girlfriend, and in my eyes, they would look weird and unhappy, but they would be happy in who they are.
I tried to become "happy" and cheerful, all bubbly because I was tired of being constantly depressed over 2 yrs. But more I try to become that "happy", the more I felt unnatural and not-myself; and I know some bubbly, happy, cheerful people who are really happy, but that's because their "happy" is what makes them happy, not me. You know what I am saying? They are happy as bubbly, care-free people, but that does not make ME happy because I am different. So what makes YOU "happy"? Looking at different perspective, some can be happy by being able to seduce lot of girls, and some can be happy by finding that one chick that he can really love.
Below here is little personal, so if you don't want to read, feel free not to.
_________________________________________________________
I am trying to find who I am and what kind of state and mind makes ME happy. Be very frank with you, I was raised with very low self-esteem, constantly compared by a super-brother who was not only a chick magnet, but he just had something that changed air around him (we all know at least one guy like that). I remember crying a lot as a little kid because it hurt so much. I saw him getting all the girls and thought "hey maybe if I learn how to attract girls, I might be happy like him and feel valuable". Not only did I fail to learn attraction, I became depressed, fighting life to be happy and dragging along day by day. Couple days ago, I met one girl that I can honestly say I really like; she liked me too. But for no reason at all, she decided I was not for her and cut me off in next few hours. From that on, I have been thinking a lot. I thought maybe God cursed me, or I was just not destined to be happy, or that I am just unlucky as fvck. Then I tried to fight this depression head on by trying to be happy, but I explained above, I need to find who I am to know what makes me happy. Fellows... can I really become "happy" and be a kind of a guy that can get a girl that I really like? (vague question b/c your happiness is different from mine. Let's define happiness here as "__________________________").