"CC08, all you do is come on here and ***** and moan about how bad modern day society is because you can't get some dumb ho to jump on your ****. It's your own fault you can't meet women, and I can't really blame them for licking my ballsack instead of hanging out with a whiny loser like you.
This website is about improving your inner game, and since you've made little attempt to actually do that, then I think you should leave."
Boy,how wrong you are. I blame myself more than anyone,hence the *****ing. It is a real problem for me, and if you can't see that, what more can I do? It has gotten to the point where changing what I want and becoming the person I want to be,or could have been,is closing day by day.
I mean, it's my own fault, and somewhat theres. I regret not becoming a natural like everyone else, or perhaps I don't know what I want, maybe alot of this was caused by add or something, or hyperactivity and weirdness as a kid. I'm not gonna get into that one right now. I can't look forward,hence the reason for all the missed opportunities over the years, or maybe it isn't my fault so much. All I know is I have this and these problem(s) that need and have needed fixing for some time. It started when I was 16, and I was convinced I was this total loser for not having the life I wanted, so it distorted my view of reality. I haven't even barely figured women out, but yet would like to marry one and start a family,without all the b.s that comes with it. Maybe I just need to move out to somewhere else,instead of my current lifestyle of constant boredom.
I am also concerned about how much looking at porn over the years has affected me in regards to all this. I won't even get into what happened the first time I had sex,let's just say due to inexperience,i.e not holding you're **** together emotionally, afterwards I said some of the dumbest things about myself to the girl. Believe me, no wonder she left me not too soon after. It's not like I go around telling this to every person I come into contact with.