Man I got serious issues. Ever since my girl broke up with me, about a year ago, I've been in a more or less self-destructive state of mind.
- I can't initiate eye-contact with people, it makes me dizzy because of the anxiety and heart rate raise, and it makes me look away.
- I'm all paranoid when I start liking a girl. Like.. who is calling her now? why hasn't she called yet? is she playing games with me? does she love me? will she cheat on me?
Those are things that i speak to my mind.
- I never feel really good about myself, I'm always faking it. I can't even enjoy anything anymore. Everything is fake. Everything seems unreal. I'm always tired. Everything I used to find joy in, I simpy don't anymore.
It's like being a zombie. Like being a walking dead.
Seriously I need help, does anyone got any advice for me? It would be highly appreciated!
I don't want to rely on any drugs or pills though.
EDIT: also, when I sleep, I have troubles waking up. I sleep VERY deeply, it takes like 5 alarmclocks to wake me up, and even then.. i wake up after 30 minutes. I hate it.
- I can't initiate eye-contact with people, it makes me dizzy because of the anxiety and heart rate raise, and it makes me look away.
- I'm all paranoid when I start liking a girl. Like.. who is calling her now? why hasn't she called yet? is she playing games with me? does she love me? will she cheat on me?
Those are things that i speak to my mind.
- I never feel really good about myself, I'm always faking it. I can't even enjoy anything anymore. Everything is fake. Everything seems unreal. I'm always tired. Everything I used to find joy in, I simpy don't anymore.
It's like being a zombie. Like being a walking dead.
Seriously I need help, does anyone got any advice for me? It would be highly appreciated!
I don't want to rely on any drugs or pills though.
EDIT: also, when I sleep, I have troubles waking up. I sleep VERY deeply, it takes like 5 alarmclocks to wake me up, and even then.. i wake up after 30 minutes. I hate it.
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