This girl I have worked with for about 6 years has always shown some interest in me, or at least it seemed that way.I will refer to her as Laura for this story. I mean, more than a friend type of interest.But I never expected anything more than a friendship (which is what we were..friends). Yes,she is married.I am single.
Oh btw,I did fall in love with her but I told myself that I would not do anything to let her or our coworkers know my feelings toward her.Besides all this,I am rather on the shy side.Although I am social and I do have a sense of humor.I do like to make people laugh.
But last year,I think I did go a little overboard with some things, such as working out on the weights more often, tanning booths,etc..and wearing cologne.I mean a big about face in my physical appearance,but not a massive one.I've always been in shape.
I thought we both flirted lightly with eachother on an equal basis, but I felt she went a little further. She said things like:"Next time this band comes here to our town, we'll go see them together". Or, "Man, you are looking buffed these days".I still didn't expect anything to occur outside the workplace.
As you will read further on down,I think maybe that I swayed the tables on toward my side, as far as taking things further or at least showing ******d signs of it....unknowningly...somewhat.
Soon, I find out she is fighting constantly with her husband and rumor has it that they were headed toward separation.
I rarely attended work place party's, but I decided to go to one earlier this year, around March 2006.I went there alone and met her and another co-worker there..among many other co-workers of course.
She left the party rather early and unexpectedly and without much conversation between us.I left her an innocent cell phone message saying jokingly:"I can't believe you left without saying goodbye,just kidding.Have a great night". That's all I said.
The next day,I see that she had called my cell phone back but did not leave a message.So I called her back.Her sister answered Laura's cell phone and told me that she and her sister were in the mall and that Laura was in the dressing room and that she would call me back.Her sister, while she had me on the phone, told me:"I heard you looked cute and sexy last night". Looking back now, it was all a game.
Laura then called me back within 5 minutes and told me she was sorry she had left early last night, but had to get back home to her kid.But she went on to tell me how great I looked.
Fast foward to around late April 2006.Laura asked me to go out on a Friday night with some of her friends.But as the week approached to that night, she cancelled out, saying plans fizzled out.Keep in mind, she never asked me out one on one.It was always an invitation among her and our own peers from work.Which,I felt more comfortable with anyway.
She started to act oddly distant at work.Less social toward me.Much less.But she would still laugh at my jokes.Very strange.
There was another time where she asked me to go out on the weekend with her and some of the other coworkers, which I accepted.But I noticed at the end of the work day that she was whispering with another male coworker and giggling and that he kept looking over at me.Then they both oddly left the building together without saying goodbye.
When that day came near for that other night's plans, she canceled out again.She apologized profusely, saying that again plans didn't come together as she thought. I began to feel like I was a victim of a game here.
There was a third time.I told myself that this would be the last time I would say yes to anything she told me as far as plans about going out.This time she kept the plans.When I arrived to the bar, there were several of my coworkers and Laura already there.She was a little distant.I spent more time in conversation with everyone else but her it seems.Then out of nowhere, that same male co-worker I mentioned above, shows up.He says to me:"are you going for Laura tonight".Before I could say anything, she had her arms around him.I in shock,I admit.
I found out later, that another female coworker had told her that I had a crush on her, even though I never told that coworker or anyone else that I did.But I have a feeling that my feelings toward her from the way I dressed and acted while at work was probably more obvious than I realized.But I felt some anger toward that coworker for making a judgement all on her own and that she sought of stirred things up.Then again,maybe it had nothing to do with how she is acting toward me now.I have no idea.
I had also noticed that Laura was very close with this other male coworker I talked about above.Sought of the way we used to be.Accept she seemed much more intimate with this guy in some ways that I really can't explain.He is more outgoing than I am.But I thought I was at least as good looking and at least funnier. And at this point,I am almost convinced that she is separated from her husband. Also rumor later has it, that she is having an affair with this coworker, but none of the aforementioned has been confirmed by anyone. I mean, who am I to ask anyway? I would risk being the sh*t stirrer as well.And also make myself look like some jealous psycho.I mean,I am not her boyfriend or her husband, so who am I to be jealous about?
There were several other incidents involving this male coworker telling me things like:"Man,I wish I can sleep with Laura...she has piercing blue eyes, luscious lips,and amazingly unique soft voice",etc. As if he has already slept with her and since he knew I had a crush on her, he would rub it in.Make me squirm. Also,Laura knew of our friendship and probably of my crush on her. To think that she would be in on this cruel game, especially involving another male coworker - makes me very angry.
But, every now and then I would think about how her husband might be feeling about now. From the endless phone calls he made to the office and to her cell..and the endless arguments they had...I have a feeling she strung him out to dry.And to think.If I was that other coworker,and if I was the one who ended up with her.Would I be feeling sorry for her husband?
In the meantime, she has invited me out a couple of more times and stood me up again.She seems almost obssessed with playing these games with me still.Even after the smoke has cleared long ago.
Does anyone know why? I even had a talk with her and told her that I just wanted to be friends and that the whole crush rumor was just that (even though it wasn't..despite me never confessing to such feelings for all to see).
But she continues to play these odd games with me.I know she doesn't want anything to do with me romantically nor as a friend it seems either.This is the oddest thing I have been involved in ever. Do you think it is my shyness that is making me a victim of her games? Is she and that male coworker having fun with me at the expense of my personality?
Oh btw,I did fall in love with her but I told myself that I would not do anything to let her or our coworkers know my feelings toward her.Besides all this,I am rather on the shy side.Although I am social and I do have a sense of humor.I do like to make people laugh.
But last year,I think I did go a little overboard with some things, such as working out on the weights more often, tanning booths,etc..and wearing cologne.I mean a big about face in my physical appearance,but not a massive one.I've always been in shape.
I thought we both flirted lightly with eachother on an equal basis, but I felt she went a little further. She said things like:"Next time this band comes here to our town, we'll go see them together". Or, "Man, you are looking buffed these days".I still didn't expect anything to occur outside the workplace.
As you will read further on down,I think maybe that I swayed the tables on toward my side, as far as taking things further or at least showing ******d signs of it....unknowningly...somewhat.
Soon, I find out she is fighting constantly with her husband and rumor has it that they were headed toward separation.
I rarely attended work place party's, but I decided to go to one earlier this year, around March 2006.I went there alone and met her and another co-worker there..among many other co-workers of course.
She left the party rather early and unexpectedly and without much conversation between us.I left her an innocent cell phone message saying jokingly:"I can't believe you left without saying goodbye,just kidding.Have a great night". That's all I said.
The next day,I see that she had called my cell phone back but did not leave a message.So I called her back.Her sister answered Laura's cell phone and told me that she and her sister were in the mall and that Laura was in the dressing room and that she would call me back.Her sister, while she had me on the phone, told me:"I heard you looked cute and sexy last night". Looking back now, it was all a game.
Laura then called me back within 5 minutes and told me she was sorry she had left early last night, but had to get back home to her kid.But she went on to tell me how great I looked.
Fast foward to around late April 2006.Laura asked me to go out on a Friday night with some of her friends.But as the week approached to that night, she cancelled out, saying plans fizzled out.Keep in mind, she never asked me out one on one.It was always an invitation among her and our own peers from work.Which,I felt more comfortable with anyway.
She started to act oddly distant at work.Less social toward me.Much less.But she would still laugh at my jokes.Very strange.
There was another time where she asked me to go out on the weekend with her and some of the other coworkers, which I accepted.But I noticed at the end of the work day that she was whispering with another male coworker and giggling and that he kept looking over at me.Then they both oddly left the building together without saying goodbye.
When that day came near for that other night's plans, she canceled out again.She apologized profusely, saying that again plans didn't come together as she thought. I began to feel like I was a victim of a game here.
There was a third time.I told myself that this would be the last time I would say yes to anything she told me as far as plans about going out.This time she kept the plans.When I arrived to the bar, there were several of my coworkers and Laura already there.She was a little distant.I spent more time in conversation with everyone else but her it seems.Then out of nowhere, that same male co-worker I mentioned above, shows up.He says to me:"are you going for Laura tonight".Before I could say anything, she had her arms around him.I in shock,I admit.
I found out later, that another female coworker had told her that I had a crush on her, even though I never told that coworker or anyone else that I did.But I have a feeling that my feelings toward her from the way I dressed and acted while at work was probably more obvious than I realized.But I felt some anger toward that coworker for making a judgement all on her own and that she sought of stirred things up.Then again,maybe it had nothing to do with how she is acting toward me now.I have no idea.
I had also noticed that Laura was very close with this other male coworker I talked about above.Sought of the way we used to be.Accept she seemed much more intimate with this guy in some ways that I really can't explain.He is more outgoing than I am.But I thought I was at least as good looking and at least funnier. And at this point,I am almost convinced that she is separated from her husband. Also rumor later has it, that she is having an affair with this coworker, but none of the aforementioned has been confirmed by anyone. I mean, who am I to ask anyway? I would risk being the sh*t stirrer as well.And also make myself look like some jealous psycho.I mean,I am not her boyfriend or her husband, so who am I to be jealous about?
There were several other incidents involving this male coworker telling me things like:"Man,I wish I can sleep with Laura...she has piercing blue eyes, luscious lips,and amazingly unique soft voice",etc. As if he has already slept with her and since he knew I had a crush on her, he would rub it in.Make me squirm. Also,Laura knew of our friendship and probably of my crush on her. To think that she would be in on this cruel game, especially involving another male coworker - makes me very angry.
But, every now and then I would think about how her husband might be feeling about now. From the endless phone calls he made to the office and to her cell..and the endless arguments they had...I have a feeling she strung him out to dry.And to think.If I was that other coworker,and if I was the one who ended up with her.Would I be feeling sorry for her husband?
In the meantime, she has invited me out a couple of more times and stood me up again.She seems almost obssessed with playing these games with me still.Even after the smoke has cleared long ago.
Does anyone know why? I even had a talk with her and told her that I just wanted to be friends and that the whole crush rumor was just that (even though it wasn't..despite me never confessing to such feelings for all to see).
But she continues to play these odd games with me.I know she doesn't want anything to do with me romantically nor as a friend it seems either.This is the oddest thing I have been involved in ever. Do you think it is my shyness that is making me a victim of her games? Is she and that male coworker having fun with me at the expense of my personality?
